Ninja-Kick! Pirate-Spit! Mushy Cheese!

Love You Lots.

2009-07-19T00:50:00.004+08:00

14 July 2009
Skipped lesson with Rebec. Headed over to Starbucks at Woodlands Civic Centre. It was nice. We had so much to talk about. I hate the new school system due to the H1N1. I can't even meet Rebec for lunch! Bummer.

For our 11th month, dear dear and I went over to Cine to watch 'I Love You, Man'. That sweetheart secretly went to buy for me my favourite Mrs Fields nibblers! OMFG! The best soft cookies in the world! I'm having cravings while typing! Jerald dearest is so thoughtful. Anyway, movie was pretty hilarious. It was nice to see Zi Ming and his girlfriend there.

18 July
Went over to dearest's place. Had Pizza for dinner. Dear and I had a medium box each. Mine was Black Pepper Seafood and his was BBQ Chicken. I actually almost finished everything! Wooo, damn was I FULL! And we watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban on Channel 5 =). Awesome day.

I love Jerald so much!
Although he can be a real ass.

2012 (Movie)

2009-07-18T13:08:00.003+08:00

Synopsis - Never before has a date in history been so significant to so many cultures, so many religions, scientists, and governments. A global cataclysm brings an end to the world and tells of the heroic struggle of the survivors.

I love end of the world stories (Not that I'm hoping it'll ever happen). It's from the director of 'The Day After Tomorrow', one of my favourite movies. Can't can't wait! Woo.

Jonas Brothers - Turn Right (Live at Walmart)

2009-07-18T12:14:00.003+08:00

Sigh... ♥♥♥

It's almost a year!

2009-07-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 11th month Jerald dearest!!! 1 more month and it'll be our one year together. Wow it's really like a dream. Dear, you make my days so much more meaningful and enjoyable. I can't believe I can stay in love for this long. Shows what an amazing person you are. Yes, I can be a real bitch to you sometimes, but I know you still love me no matter what. Your actions show. Thank you for everything dear dear. I LOVE YOU!!

Grades, Fyp, Movies

2009-07-13T22:32:00.004+08:00

Hello!

I shall make all of you jealous by displaying my grades!

Cold Chain: B+ (WEEEEEEEE)

Warehouse: C (nooooooo, I can do better!)

Procurement: B (expected to do better)

Logistics: B+ (totally did not expect it)

NOT BAD RIGHT?! I bet YOU didn't expect it.

What to do? I'm full of surprises. Ahem.

IN YOUR FACE, you doubters.

Moving on...

FYP last week was horrible. Met up with team to work on our applicator. Had to do the test printing of labels to cartons. So many problems. Hopefully this week everything will be successful.

Friday!

Went over to dearest's place after lesson. Had dinner with Charm and him at Liang Court. Their elder brother introduced this Italian place called Saizeriya. I had Hamburg Steak with Mushroom while they 2 had Hamburg Steak with Cheese. We also ordered their Seafood Chowder and Glazed Escargot. Food was satisfactory and quite cheap. Bill was under $40. After, we walked around Liang Court (my first time there) and Clarke Quay. Headed back to my place. Bought 2 tubs of Ben & Jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough. One big for Charm and Jerald to share and one small for myself. Indulgence. We chilled in my room. Long day.

Saturday!

Went over to dearest's place before heading to Cathay. Watched 'The Haunting In Connecticut'. One of my anticipated movie. I have to say the movie is not as shocking as 'Drag Me To Hell'. It was rather sad though, wouldn't say it's 'pee-in-your-pants' scary. Dearest sent me home. Nice, simple day. Dear dear is such a sweetheart.

Sunday!
Studied for freaking Warehouse UT.

Today!

Stressssss! I had 3 team mates for Warehousing lesson today, but it felt like 1. That same China guy is utterly useless. His friend isn't so bad I guess. But then, Am and I were the ones doing most of the work. Not much difference whether those 2 existed or not. Cramps + Stress, not a good combination. There goes my A. UT was pretty horrible too. Had dinner with dearest, Jac, Ras and Nat at KFC. We had a blast buying those bread at Break Talk. 10 bread for $9!!! Cheap! Sigh, long freaking day.

*pray* please let tmr be better.

*pray* please heal dearest's eye.

*pray* no cramps tmr please.

*pray* cooler weather.

Sigh.

I ♥ Disney!

2009-07-12T14:48:00.007+08:00

Oh no no no! This is wrong but I think I have a crush on an 18 year old kid!

Mitchel Musso!!!

Yes, that kid from Hannah Montana!
Who knew he would turn out to be so adorable.
Who knew he could sing?!
And his brother (Mason Musso) is the lead singer of Metro Station!

He's no Zac Efron okay, but he is cute in his own way.

Mitchel Musso - HEY!

His debut album is great. Me likey.

And yes, I love the Disney Channel kids. Demi Lovato, Ashley Tisdale, Zac Efron, Jonas Brothers... love them all. I absolutely can't stand it when people think that they're so 'cool' and listening to Disney stuff is lame. *warning* Self-esteem issue!! What makes you think what you're listening to is cool?! Cause the bands are UNKNOWN? Or you're too MATURE? Give me a break. Diversify.

I love the 'High School Musical' and I'm not ashamed to say it!

School = Slow Death

2009-07-04T01:12:00.007+08:00

1 July, Wednesday
FYP!

Met up with team early in the morning.
AS USUAL, people were late.
We did a lot that day. Even the faci said so. Happy about that.
HOWEVER, she told us that we have to present to the staff this wednesday and 2 weeks from now we'll have to present to the company!!! Stress!
Had a nice time with the team members though. Aaron was crazily hyper, kinda scary.
After; Ras, Aaron, Natalie, dearest and I had dinner at Pasta Mania.
Long but fufilling day.

2 July, Thursday
School's new break system!

Freaking horrible!
Principle doesn't want to close school, NVM.
Now, even our freedom is limited!
We have time slots for our breaks. And both our breaks are barely even an hour each. (Before we can even get the flu we would have polly died from choking.)
That's not all, we are even allocated to a food court. (What's next? Uniforms?)

Ahhh... perfect.

Everyone has to leave by 4.30pm. (FYP HOW?!! You expect so much yet forbid us from using the lab!)
Fucked up.
Obviously it doesn't help at all. If not, why are the numbers rising everyday?
Well done, RP. 100 cases plus and counting.

I'm staring to believe all these 'rules' are for show. They check for thermometers every morning, but they don't even inspect if it is usable. Facis don't even care if we check our temperature. They allocate us to a food court, but don't even care if we stray. 4.30pm, I still see people around. They say measures are taken, I SAY "WHAT MEASURES"?!

And have they forgotten? Early in the morning, many students take the bus 902 to school! So no matter how they try to segregate us in school, we still might get it ON THE WAY to school.
So many loopholes. But hey, the 'bigger' people are always right. What are we? Mere students. Who cares?

3 July, Friday
Ice age with dearest!

Skipped lesson, went over to Plaza Sing with dearest. Watch 'Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs'. Cute movie, felt it was too long though.
Dear dear, thank you for the strawberry shower gel from Body Shop =)

And then, my bad luck began.
Ordered KFC, took a cab to dearest's place.
Guess what?
I left my freaking dinner in the cab!
Pissed.
Walked to Novena with dearest to get another set.
GUESS WHAT?!
I didn't get what I ordered and only found out when we reached his place.
Woo, tough day.

I'm so glad I had dear dear, he was such a sweetheart and did not complain at all.

Made a card for daddy's birthday. Dad was so happy. He asked me to invite Jerald for dinner the next day.

4 July, Saturday
Daddy's birthday!

Celebrated at Marina Square's Pariss International Seafood Buffet.
There was dad, mum, Josh, Joel, Joel's girlfriend, dearest and I.
Delightful.
I love having dinner with my family!
In the beginning, everything was great.
BUT THEN, what goes up must come down!
Suddenly a HUGE group of people started swarming the place!
Talk about low class, all of a sudden.
But mind you! Each person cost $50 plus.
My dad said that those people were from the Singapore Flyer.
They had a package thing.
Ass. Of all days. Tsk.

After dinner, we walked around.
Headed over to HMV.
Dear dear managed to get his 'Jurassic Park' DVD. How adorable. Classic movie.
Both kor and dad bought VCDs too.
I got 2 books (Mitch Albom's 'For One More Day' and 'The Five People You Meet In Heaven') for the price of $18. CHEAP. Yes, they sell books.
I was exhausted by the time I reached home.

Did I mention? I woke up at 4pm that day!
And that says a lot cause I don't normally sleep like a pig, aka Jerald *grin*.

6 July, Monday
As usual I got a dumb team for warehousing. Thank God I had Amileen. The china dude was useless and a real pain. He came to school, did nothing at all, and started scaring us again. The other time he said he came into contact with a H1N1 victim and had to go home. And today, he came to school and awhile later told the faci that he had direct contact with a victim and needs to go see a doctor and get LOA. WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS DUDE?! If he came into contact with a victim, WHAT THE FUCK WAS HE DOING IN SCHOOL?! Well, he claimed that the school asked him to attend lessons as per normal. Wow, once again, WELL DONE RP. I guess your reputation is more precious then our lives.

Faci was really hilarious. He's a 61 years old man. He said that he is at a high risk age and told Am and I he'll see us at Tan Tock Seng hospital because all 3 of us came into direct contact with the china guy! WTF?! CHOY!

After school, FYP team wasted an hour waiting for faci. In the end, we could not use the isail lab and had to head home. Sigh. Looks like we've got to chiong on Wednesday morning and try our best to present to the staff.

Not going to school tmr. Gonna study for Thrusday's UT. Sian.

I'm quite smart okay!

2009-06-29T23:11:00.004+08:00

Oh oh oh, how can I forget to mention this?!!
I have to brag a little lah.

I've gotten a B+ for my Cold Chain UT and C for my Warehousing.
Okay, not that great. But then, I did not expect such grades either.
And when was the last time I actually got a B for my UT?

Pat on the back, well done Joen. =)

Epic!

2009-06-29T19:41:00.012+08:00

This is fucking cool!!! I am using my new itouch to blog. Hahaha. Freaking amazed by it. It's so difficult to 'touch' the alphabets though. Hur hur I need to finish my dinner. Stop Joen, stop! Will blog with my laptop later.
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UPDATE!

23 June - Monday
Woke up at 6am! It's been awhile since I've woken up so early for school. Had a cold chain warehouse visit. The place was really interesting, BUT THEY MADE US STAY IN A -20 DEGREES COLD ROOM FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG! It was freaking CRAZY! My hands and feet were numb! And I had icing in my nostrils! Definitely a once in a lifetime experience. I'm never going back there!

26 June - Friday
After school, headed over to Orchard with Jac and Ras. Met Jerald there. Went to Borders to find the Rolling Stones magazines Jac wanted. Too bad they did not have it, neither did Plaza Singapura's Times. The long day gave me a terrible headache. Thank God after awhile I was fine and happily ate my sushi! We had Sakae Sushi buffet. YUM YUM. After, headed to dearest's place for awhile before heading home.

27 June - Saturday
*sings* "TRANSFORMERS, ROBOTS IN DISGUISE!" HAAHA. Retro song. Had a bad dinner, don't wanna talk about it. We missed the first 10 minutes of 'Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen'. The movie was good, not as great as the first but still enjoyable. =)) i say everyone should watch at least once. Yap. After movie, cabbed to dearest's place and then home. Dear dear can be a real pain in the ass sometimes! Hur hur hur.

28 June - YESTERDAY
Had dinner with parents and Josh at Jurong Point's Soup Restaurant. I love their pork ribs soup! AND DADDY BOUGHT FOR ME AN iTOUCH!!! Wooo. I really have the best dad in the world. I just casually mentioned about it and he said "Okay". Hur. I am blessed. Got the 16GB one for $498. 16 GB is kinda pathetic, my previous Creative MP4 was 60GB! My songs alone filled up more than half of the itouch. But HEY!!! It's a freaking itouch man! Woo. And call me a country mouse, but NO ONE TOLD ME THAT I COULD SURF THE NET WITH THAT FREAKING COOL GADGET!!! Awesome lahhhhh! Hur hur.

Now, dear and I have the same handphone model and itouch!!! Cool siaaaaa!

TODAY
Skipped school. Went to Orchard with THE evil one. I love chatting with Rebec. Next time, Pacific coffee (breeding ground headquarter)! Talk talk talk talk!
My itouch made my day. I am still amazed at it's abilities! Power!

Poor dear dear stomach pain again!!! GO SEE A DOCTOR SILLY BOY! *hug* I have to keep nagging!

Wa lao, RP has 57 confirmed cases of H1N1 already! They still don't want to close schoool!!!! I keep telling my dad that they are out to get us year 2 and 3 students as we are the 'aging' population. Sad case. EH I HAVE MY RIGHTS TO VOICE MY OPINIONS HOR.

Irresponsible

2009-06-24T19:20:00.006+08:00

I am not gonna sugar coat my words, I am fucking pissed!

I am fucking sick and tired of waiting for people. People who can NEVER be on time!
People who think they are royalties who should make people like me, the slaves, wait for them eternally!
I SAY FUCK ALL OF YOU!
If you are even in the slightest bit HUMAN, you will feel shameful and know that I have all rights in the world to criticize you all!
And in fact, all of you owe me.

Yes, I am not perfect, I have been late before.
But, the number of times I've been late can be counted with my fingers.
And NEVER, I repeat, NEVER have I been late for more than half an hour.
I DARE SOMEONE TO COME AND REBUT!

I have waited for people for more than an hour. I have friends who are ALWAYS late. My FYP team mates are forever late (well except for Ras). If you're late ONCE IN A WHILE, fine. If you're late for 5 to 10 minutes, okay. BUT SERIOUSLY, ALWAYS LATE?! WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?! You people seriously need to attend time management courses.

I have held my silence for too long! These people are pushing the boundaries and I have had it!
But then again... WHO GIVES A SHIT?!
There, next week, I'll be waiting again like an idiot.
I feel so extremely guilty when I am late, but I guess some people just don't have a sense of shame.
I should learn from them. And next time when it's your fucking time to wait, DON'T COMPLAIN.

Screw you fucking humans!
And to those who rush into the train before allowing others to alight, I HAVE ONE WORD FOR YOU.

HELL.
=)

Disgusting and irresponsible behavior.
Good luck, assholes.
You're never gonna get married or a job.

RP IS DANGEROUS!

2009-06-22T20:23:00.003+08:00

Another tiring day!
Didn't sleep well the night before.
HOWEVER, I am very proud of myself today!
I actually did the Excel for the team!!!
=))
Achievement! HAHAHAHA.
In fact I did a lot today!
I DESERVE AN A!!!

Had lunch with Rebec, Jerald, Natalie and Ras. I've been eating chicken chop every weeek! *puke*

ANYWAY! Today the hot topic among students is H1N1!!
2 students from our school have fallen prey to the virus!

One of our classmates actually came into contact with a victim!
He came to class but left!
The class freaked!
The faci even came back to class with a mask!
It was pretty hilarious actually.
Nothing's confirmed, so don't worry.

God will bless us all.

Sigh, I have to be in school by 8.45am tmr. We're gonna visit a cold chain warehouse. BORRRRING. I have to wake up at 6!
Gonna sleep now!

I Have The Best Dad!

2009-06-21T19:45:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was Father's Day!!!
My dear dad still went to work. He is one diligent man.
You know why my dad is the best father in the whole world?
That's cause he works real hard for the family and is never stingy with his money when it comes to us, and in fact everyone else.
He is patient and has never raised his voice. (Well except for that one time when my brother was being an ass.)
I love my dad!

Went to Jurong Point with kor and his girlfriend. Bro bought for us products from The Face Shop, how nice of him. Walked around before we headed off to meet mum and dad for dinner.

WE HAD SEAFOOD AT MY FAVOURITE COFFEE SHOP YESTERDAY!
Initial plan was to eat at Soup Restaurant but they were fully booked. Same goes for Zhou's Kitchen.
But hey, I'm not complaining. It's been so long since we've eaten at my fav place.
Joshua came to join us too.
We had prawns, stingray, fish, clams and my favourite SOTONG! And of course our usual kang kong and tofu from another stall.
YUM YUM YUM.
SATISFIED.

I miss my grandparents! They are coming back from Malaysia soooon!

I did a card for dearest at night. Cannot tell for what. It's a secret!

Saturday Night In

2009-06-21T01:03:00.003+08:00

I was upset with dearest the past 2 days. Sigh.

Anyway, I'm glad I went over to his place today. We managed to communicate in a rational way. And made our feelings known. As much as I want to strangle him sometimes, whenever I see him, all the lovey-dovey feelings come back to me. I just hate us being apart.

Had a really pleasant day.
Ordered Mac for dinner. Ate in front of the TV with dearest and his brother.
Watched 'Last Comic Standing', real hilarious!
After, spent some time talking and it was time for me to leave.
=((

Can't wait for our movie date next Saturday!
We're gonna watch 'Transformers 2'!!
Dear dear is so excited that he booked the tickets about 2 weeks ago!

Melt.

2009-06-19T22:14:00.006+08:00

OMG I'm falling in love with Alex Marshall (The Cab), all over again!
Hur hur hur.
I heard the acoustic verson of 'I'll Run'. Love love loveeeeee it! Just downloaded! Wooooo.

Shit ass Youtube took away 'I'll Run' MV. Alex looked so cute! Pissed I did not download the video when I had the chance!

He's the pianist

The Cab - New Music - More Music Videos

Oh and did I mention how adorable Maika Maile (lead singer) of There For Tomorrow is?!
Check out for yourself!

There For Tomorrow - Pages

There For Tomorrow - No More Room To Breathe

Shopping and Insomnia

2009-06-18T21:47:00.003+08:00

Had FYP meeting on Wednesday. Gosh, I dread going to school on Wednesdays!
And we were only there for about an hour!!! That's lesser than my journey to school.
Sigh.

After the redundant meeting, headed over to Orchard with Serene.
Haha, our first shopping trip together.
Took same train with Aaron, had a nice journey to town.
Serene was the queen shopper!
We tried tons of stuff at Forever 21 and she wanted like everything!
Went to the usual places. Cotton on, Max and More, Zara, Pull and Bear.
Sweet Serene allowed me to experiment on her! Hur hur hur.
Went to Watson's to test their mascara on her. I made a messssss!
HAHA. But it did turn out pretty nice lah.
Persuaded her to buy an eyelash curler. Heeee.
Seee that's what I do when I don't have a sister to play make and dress ups with.
=(

Made our way to Far East. Serene bought stuff.
Headed back to Wisma to get our tops at Forever 21. Serene bought more stuff.
She went crazy with her money.
After all that walking, it was time for dinner.
Since we were BROKE, had to stick to fast food. KFC.

Reached home close to 10pm.
I had a great time.
I think I've found a new shopping buddy! Hur hur.
Boy was I tired.
Bathed, studied for UT, looked through the next day's lesson problem.
Any normal human would have knocked out the moment they hit the sack.
Guess I'm no human!
I was extremely hyper.
Slept around 4am and woke up at 7am.

No shit, I HAD A LONNNNNG DAY TODAY!
Procurement lesson was.... WOOO!
Proud of myself that I did the Excel though.
UT, sigh.
Had dinner with dearest, Ras and Jac at Pasta Mania.
Headache, dearest decided to accompany me home.
Aww, sweetheart.
Chilled at my place for awhile before his dad came to fetch him.

Okay... spacing out. Aku need sleep. Cannot tahan. Woo I'm turning into a minah.
Heading to dearest's place tmr.
Can't wait. Till then, ZzzzzZZzzzzzzz *snore*.

I ♥ Chan Chan the pig.

10 Agonizing Weeks

2009-06-16T22:34:00.006+08:00

First day back to the mental institution and I'm already washed out.
I don't know how I'm gonna survive the next 10 weeks.
Cold Chain lesson was majorly BORING!
Studied for UT the night before, but HEY HEY, it did not help at all. Just great.
And then I got that attitude, that I did not deserve, from that someone.
Oh and I realised I don't have bluetooth in my laptop, there goes the mouse.
So hell ya I have a right to be moody.

Trained to Jurong East with Ras.
Headed over to IMM on my own. Loserish moment.
Cabbed home.
Had dinner with Josh, which was pleasant. He then headed off to meet his friend.
I bought more food (cotton candy, fake Thai shark's fin, honey chicken and steamed peanuts) from the Pasar Malam. Another loserish moment.
Did my RJ and those really addictive quizzes on Facebook. Nerd.
I have freaking school tmr in the afternoon, peachy.
Go all the way back to school to show the faci how to use the stupid RFID applicator.

Joen needs sleep. I have not been sleeping well. Cranky, very cranky.

Don't give me those sweet talk and empty promises.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

2009-06-15T14:58:00.004+08:00

I'm supposed to be studying for my freaking UT.
Instead, I'm doing those lame and inaccurate quizzes on Facebook.
Skipped school today due to my horrible period cramps.
Thank God I'm much better now.

Okay, I'm gonna rant about the dreadful woman thingy.
Guys can leave this part out.

For once in my life, my period actually came on the day it's supposed to come!
I was excited.
But then the pain yesterday was really BAD!
I hate those girls who don't get cramps! *envious look*

So school has started.
It's gonna be an annoying week.
2 UTs and FYP team has to go back to school on Wednesday!
Blah!

Time to study. Such a pain.

Friday Night Event.

2009-06-13T15:35:00.009+08:00

Met up with Jerald dearest, Jac, Ras and her friend, Intan.
Jerald, Jac and I decided to watch 'Drag me to Hell' at 9.40pm.
Had dinner at Cathay's Aston. I had my yummy black pepper chicken.
Stupid cramps had to dampen my mood.
As we had time to spare, we headed to Plaza Singapura.
After awhile, Ras and friend decided to head to Funan.
Jerald, Jac and I sat at 'Pie Kia' for drinks and pies.
Headed to Cathay again. Sat outside the cinema, watched movie trailers.
After like ages of resisting the temptation to sleep, it was time for the movie!
Bought our tidbits and off to the theater.
I have to admit, we got shocked a couple of time. I hate the sudden loud sounds! CHEAT!
The movie wasn't FANTASTIC! But I still had fun watching it.
I love Justin Long =)))

And OMG! Saw the new Final Destination trailer in the theater!
Dying to watch! I loved the previous 3.
The new one is called 'The Final Destination', so I'm guessing it's the last.
And it's gonna be in 3D! Holy holy!
I've watched two 3D movies so far, and I have to say, nothing amazing. But still...

And of course, waiting patiently for 'Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen'. The movie that gives Jerald dearest, I quote, "an eye orgasm".

After the movie,
Jac rushed to take her last train home.
Jerald and I cabbed back to my place.
Called Josh to have supper with us.
Dearest cabbed home.
I was so tired that I fell asleep without messaging dearest goodnight. =(

Overall, fun day!

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Woke up this morning with terrible cramps!
One of the worst.
I was in so much pain that I had cold sweat.
Was crying out for my mum and praying.
IT WAS THAT BAD.
N0 more, no more, please.

Just made a card for daddy for Father's Day.
Gonna have early Father's Day lunch at Soup Restaurant tmr.

Ohhhh and tmr is our 10th month!!!! (Dearest and I, of course)
Time flies.

Sigh... School starts on Monday.
And stupid brother of mine is having his 3 weeks holiday!
Oh god, how am I gonna survive the next 10 weeks of pure torture?!!
I'm already feeling so crappy with my PMS!
And and UT ON TUESDAY! FUCCCCCK!

Unexpected Shopping

2009-06-11T22:11:00.004+08:00

First message I saw when I woke up was Rebec asking me to go shopping!
PERFECT.
Had to rush rush rush to meet her at 1.30pm, Anchorpoint.
Had lunch at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe. Horrible food and service. They practically used maggi mee as their noodles!
Tried shoes at our favourite Charles and Keith store. I love their heels, really, but why do they have to be so HIGH?! Ungraceful Joen does not know how to walk in them, ya... mock me.
Bought nothing.

Headed over to Vivo to search for the Pull and Bear top which I adore.
AND GUESS WHAT?!!!!
They have my sizeeeeeee. I BOUGHT ITTTTTT! Wooo hoooooo. $34.90. Reasonable and nicey.
Walked around, dropped by Candy Empire!
BIG MISTAKE!
I took one thing... and it did not stop there.
Rebec and I bought $30 worth of goodiesssssss! SINFUL.

Went over to dearest's place. Bought dinner for him and myself. Precious was behaving so child-like today! Hur hur hur. *HUGGGGGGGG* I was glad I went over for awhile, should have stayed longer though. Thanks to my stupid chicken porridge craving, I headed home early! AND THE FREAKING STORE WAS CLOSED. =(((((
NVM! Aston tmr!!!!
Can't can't can't wait. And I am so excited to watch 'Drag Me to Hell', it better be good.

OKAY, time to sleep.
And I bet Jerald dearest is the only one who reads my blog, so I get to say...
I LOVE YOUUUUUUU!
*blush*

SHOPPING CRAZE!

2009-06-10T23:19:00.006+08:00

Finally had the chance to meet the evil one.

Man am I tired! Gonna blog and then sleep.

Had lunch with Rebecca at Pasta de Waraku at Hereen.

That girl is obsessed with the place.
I had Chicken and Mushroom in Miso cream and Bec had Vongele... thingy. Don't know the name.
Mine was fine, too butter-y though. Shall try something else next time, there are so much to choose from!

Walked to Taka, Wisma and then to Far East.
Stuff at Forever 21, Cotton On and Zara were disappointing.

I LOVED A TOP AT PULL AND BEAR THOUGH! But don't have my size =(

Okay, cam whore moments at P&B (the light in the changing room is freaking flattering! Love it! Just to let you all know, I did NOTHING to my pictures. I don't even have photoshop anyway, someone can buy for me though =DDDDD. But then my phone's cam is lousy, that's why you don't see any flaws (that's why I love my phone!!! Hur hur)). Waiting for Rebec to send me the rest of the pics.

THAT'S THE TOP THAT I WANT!!!!

SEEEEEEEEE! That is how flattering the lights are!
I loook NOTHING like that!

Okay, anyway, moving on...
Trip to Far East was fruitful!
I bought a lovely pair of brown shoes and silky shorts!
CHEAP CHEAP! $19.90 and $15 respectively.
Other purchases: Products from The Face Shop, Maybelline's new gel eyeliner and makeup remover.
Hmm... come to think of it, I didn't buy much.
I intended to spend all my $200, but I still have $50 plus left.
Not bad already hor.

Had dinner at Hans (I had my beef hor fan, yum yum) before heading home. Heee heee.
Me took a cab from City Hall. Cost me $18!!
No more cabbing.

I WANT THE BLOUSE FROM PULL AND BEAR! ARRRRRRH!

* THANK YOU BUDDY REBECKY FOR THE PRESENT! Muack.
See you on Monday!!! Lunch!

Excited for Friday!!
Jerald, Jac, Ras and I meeting up for dinner at Aston and movie, 'Drag Me To Hell'.
*grin*

Pool/ BBQ Picturesssssss! (5 June 2009)

2009-06-10T22:36:00.010+08:00

Sad sad sad that we forgot to take a group picture! Oh well, there's always another time, I guess.

People who attended: Me, Jerald, Charmaine, Ras, Zaini, Serene, Zack and Jac.
Anyway, missing from pictures are Serene and Zack =(

* Read previous post for the happenings =)

Froggy?!

Hur hur hur! I'm queen of the world!

SISTERHOOD! Oopsy.

The Giant and the Hobbit. =D

The nerd and his bodyguards.

Pit. HOT!

Our fooooood. Yummy yummy buffet!

Me french braiding Charm's hair.

The poool.

Jac, our resident cook! Grateful!

Swim swim swim~~~

SMILE!

"Look Charm!"

Muack! I look like a duck... hurrr.

Hee heee. *blush*

"NOOOOOOOOOO"

Awww.... cute.

Brother and sister.

Once again, our lovely cook! My hardworking nu er.

PIZZA PARTY NEXT?!!!! YES?!!!! WOOOOO.

2009-06-09T14:56:00.001+08:00

There are lots of horrid people around us. EXTERMINATION!

First week of Holidays.

2009-06-09T13:23:00.016+08:00

Our 2 weeks holidays have started, and a week is gone.
Fruitful week though.

30 May (Saturday):

JiJi, Melvin, Joshua, Joel, Me and Melissa.

My brothers, Me and Mel

Adrian's (uncle) wedding. Went to the church ceremony with Joel at St. Teresa Church early in the morning.
The wedding dinner was on Sentosa beach! At Rasa Sentosa Resort by Shangri-la!
THE PLACE IS SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL!
My dream is to stay there one day.
Wedding on the beach is a first for me. Concept is great, however weather was horrible. Too warm and humid!!! The buffet was yummy though. Heee heee.
Dad was sick, so he and mum didn't go.
Went with Joel and Joshua.
Met Melissa, Melvin and the other relatives.
It was nice I guess, except for the weather.
=D

1 Jun (Monday):
Went over to dearest's place. Chilled for awhile before heading to Vivo for scrumptious dinner at Earle Swensen's. Ate there once with kor and his girlfriend. Amazing place, love their steak and free salad bar buffet. Anyway, Jerald ordered the Ribeye steak and I got the Sirloin steak. YUM YUM. Dearest ate 3 plates full of salad!! Hur hur. Delightful. Walked around for awhile before heading to my place. Dearest is so sweet, he sends me home all the time.

3 Jun (Wednesday):
Had FYP. Was grumpy the whole day =(. Headed to Causeway Point to eat with Ras, Serene and Jerald. Went over to Fairprice to get the stuff for our BBQ on Friday. We had a blast shopping! Got prawns, chicken wings, crab sticks, hotdogs, fish fillets, sauces, limes, drinks and the stuff needed for the BBQ. HEAVY! We trained to Toa Poyoh before taking a cab back to Jerald's place. Rested for awhile, Ras did the marination of the meats. We had a nice time talking shit. Had dinner, Serene headed off to meet her boyfriend, Zack. Ras and I stayed until 11pm plus before cabbing home. For parts of the night I was extremely grumpy. Hahaha. Weird. PMS, has to be.

5 & 6 Jun (Friday & Saturday):
BBQ DAYYYYYY! The event we've been waiting for!
* Will upload the photos when Ras sends me =)

Met Ras and her brother at Jurong east, headed to Toa Payoh to meet Jac. We bought ice and a lemon before cabbing to Jerald's place. Chilled for awhile, around 6pm we got ready to start the BBQ!!!

Charm, Jerald's sister joined us. Jac, Ras and I were cooking most of the time, we had tons of fooooooood. Jerald's mum bought more prawns and beef, and also made fruit salad for us! And boy was I glad there was a pool there! We had so much fun! The food were great, the weather was good and we went for a swim/ dip once in awhile. Serene finally came. We ate and chatted. Zack came and Jerald's family came down to join us for awhile. Jerald's bro, Kef helped us cook, while we swam. And cute cute Austin (Jerald's nephew)!!! So adorable! Dear peeled the prawns for me!!! Sweetie! This was one day without any setbacks or conflict! PERFECT. I was glad it was just the original few of us. Peaceful and fun.

Around 10pm plus, we went up for watermelon!! Serene and Zack left as he had work the next day. Jac went home around 11pm, bummer that she had to work too. Ras, her brother and I stayed. We bathed and relaxed. Drank Jerald's mum yummy herbal soup. Dear and I decided to watch my 'Predator' VCD, while Ras and Zaini used his laptop. I dozed off, and we decided it's time to sleep. Weird thing was when I went to bed, my mind was active again and I couldn't sleep. Jerald and I had difficulty sleeping and decided to go to the living room and rest instead. Eventually we fell asleep for awhile. The whole night it was on and off. Kinda frustrating. Time passed fast though. We lazed around in Jerald's room until around noon. Had lunch, lazed around more. Decided to watch a movie with dearest at Vivo. Dropped Ras and Zaini off at dhoby ghaut. Had a simple dinner before catching 'Terminator Salvation'. Movie was fine. Oh and I bought the book 'The Diary of a Young Girl: Anne Frank'. We were both really tired. Dearest still insisted on sending me home. Mum kept crab for me, hur hur! We watched TV for awhile before dear headed home.

9 Jun (Monday):
Went to dearest's place. Had lunch. Experimented on both dearest and Charm. I shall leave out the details. HEEEE HEEEE. Headed to AMK Hub with dear, had simple dinner and caught the movie 'Monsters Vs Aliens 3D'. Cute! As usual, dear sent me home *hug*. Misss him soooo much!

Meeting Rebec tmr!!! FINALLY, SHOPPING!
Ras, Jac, Serene and Jerald!!!! Aston or sushi buffet again soooooooooon!

I've been eating lots lately! Oh no, holidayssss!

Happy 20th Birthday!!! (24 May 2009)

2009-06-09T12:30:00.009+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Wooo, I'm old.

KKKK, updates.

23 May (Birthday eve):

Met up with Jerald dearest for my pre birthday celebration. Watched 'Night At The Museum 2' at The Cathay, I loved the movie =). After, we headed to this place called 'Absolute Haven'. Dearest put in so much effort in making my birthday memorable. The place was interesting, kinda like a fine dining feel. Their water was so unique, sliced strawberries in water. Dinner wasn't fantastic, very small portion for almost $20. However, I loved the peaceful environment, for once away from the crowd. After dinner we headed to Jerald's place. And dearest surprised me with an Oreo Cheesecake which he made (Natalie taught him beforehand)! He even had a candle for me... so sweet! Okay, I'm not a fan of cheesecakes, but still... AWWW. I loved the Oreos, heee. =)) thank you dear!

P.S. Dearest gave me my belated birthday present few days after. Guess what?! IT WAS A MOUSE! The computer kind... not the rodent. HAHA. AND HEY MIND YOU, that is one expensive mouse! It's from Razer. BLUETOOTH! He knew I wanted a new mouse, because 4 people in my Procurement class have the exact mouse as meeeee!

How thoughtful of you dear. THANK YOU THANK YOU.

Hee, if i'm not wrong, the very first present Jerald gave me was also a mouse, because we had lots of Excel to do!

How adorable!

24 May (My birthday!):
Lots and lots of ka-ching!
$100 from Mum
$100 from kor (Joel)
$200 from Dad
$50 from grandparents
$20 from Jerald's mum
Thank you thank you thank you, love you all!

WHO'S RICH?!!!!
But now I'm only left with $250, and I've not even shopped yet!

Thank you Shu Fang for 'The Face Shop' products, Love them. =))
Once again, thank you Siti for the lovely necklace.
Thank you Rebecca in advance for my belated present. See you tmr!
Thank you everyone for the wishes.

Okay anyway,
Daddy brought the familly to Kuishin-Bo for dinner, kor's recommendation.
Asked Jerald to join us. HAPPY!
There snow crab's interesting. And fresh fresh sashimi!
Too costly though, it's $40 plus per person!
I had a fantastic time!!
Walked around, then headed home.
=))

Joen's very very happy.

The new and old friends.

2009-06-09T12:02:00.003+08:00

Since school started, I have been closer to a few people.

Serene and Ras, my FYP team mates, been hanging out with them a lot, along with Jerald (hopefully Aaron, my another team mate who is a very nice guy, can stop his game addiction and hang out with us more!!!). Jac, my nu er, has gotten close to us too. Love hanging out with them. It's so much easier now that everyone knows everyone else, since we have different classes everyday. Cheers to the friendship!

And as usual Rebecca the evil!! Always meeting her for lunch, where we'll spread our evil love for people. CAN'T WAIT FOR SHOPPING TMR!!!! Wooooo.

And I miss my bestie! SITI MEET UP SOONNNNN! It's been so long since we've gone shopping together.

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For the period that I did not blog, lots happened and have been resolved. Most, can't remember. But there were lots of good times with Jerald dearest and Rebecca.

HAPPY 8th and 9th month Jerald!!!
We have been through lots of ups and downs, but I still love you! We will work things out.
DEAR!!! IKEA SOOOOOON! I want my salmon and you want your balls! Hurr. Swedish balls lah!

Long Long Ago (9 Feb 2009)

2009-06-09T11:09:00.008+08:00

Early this year, my year 2 sem 2 class (E45L) had a Chalet/ BBQ. This is a long due post. Hur.

PICTURES!

The early birds.

LET IT BURN!! Eating time.

GROUP PICTURE!

From the top: Ling Qian, Song Ren & Ting Hui

Nigel, Yong Xiang, Daniel and Veron

Jerald & I

Missy, Hui Ling, Mas and Jac.

After the BBQ, everyone's all stinky and sticky.

The guys watching TV.

Ling Qian the pervert, insisting on reading the 'Sex' column.

Prepared for a long, stinky and warm day.

Met Jerald dearest at City Hall. Trained to Pasir Ris, what a long journey. Had Burger King as we were hungry. We were the last ones to reach Downtown East, and because the rest needed my precious tongs, they had to wait. HUR HUR HUR.

We got started. Khai and his classmates had a BBQ too, so he came to disturb us for awhile. The guys and Jac were the ones cooking. All that smoke and burned meat, UNHEALTHY. BBQ is kinda like eating crab, you do so much but is left unsatisfied at the end of the day. But I had fun!! If only my annoying period did not ruin my night for me, it would have been perfect. And of course there was that certain group of UNINVITED people who had to bring on the drama. Geeeee! Shall not recount the bad parts.

Gang decided to walk to the infamous 'Red House'. Or rather were we opposite the road, staring into the darkness. I couldn't see anything. I have to say, it was stupid. Long long walk, and we practically scared ourselves. No more visits to 'haunted' places.

When we got back to the room, for some reason we decided to watch more creepy stuff. At that time Jac and I were obsessed with 'Paranormal state' and decided to screen it. After, they watched 'The Haunting of Molly Hartley'. As I was in so much pain due to the cramps and gastric, I had to try to sleep. Thank God dearest was there to hug me and lend me his shoulder. I don't know what I would have done without him. Call me a baby, but I was in serious agony! And I got quite a few scares that night.

Dawn came, everyone headed to Mac. I still felt horrible, so we decided to leave first. Said our goodbyes, and dearest cabbed home with me. He paid for the OMG expensive cab fare, it was about $30 plus, total rip off! He sat at my place for awhile and ate his breakfast. After he followed me to buy mine and headed off. LONG CRAZY DAY.

For some reason, I missed dearest so much more! That one day with him made me realise how much I need him. Thank you Jerald dearest!!! You're a lifesaver. =D

Bestie!

2009-05-22T21:48:00.003+08:00

Siti is such a sweetie.
Met her for dinner at KFC.
She bought me a 'J' necklace from Moshi Moshi Jewellery and made a card with our picture, for my birthday!
I'm so happy and touched.
Thank you bestie!

Can't wait to meet Jerald tmr.
His 'surprise' is killing me.
So secretive!

Birthday dinner with the family at Kuishin-Bo Authentic Japanese Buffet Restaurant (Suntec) on Sunday.
*rubs tummy*
SASHIMI!!!

Oh and and and,
Can't wait for the Private Pool-BBQ 'Party'.
Will talk more about it when it's confirmed.

KRIS ALLEN IS THE NEW AMERICAN IDOL!
Poor Adam.
Looks like I'm still a jinx to the Idols and everyone else that I support.
HAHA!

There's warehousing UT on Monday! Bummer.
Either I study today, or on my birthday...
Such limited choices.
Sigh.

Promise to update more after my birthday!!
=D

Hur Hur Hur.

2009-05-18T19:45:00.003+08:00

I swear I've been wanting to update for ages!
But every time I get all lazy and do something else.
Btw, I've been watching '48 hours Mystery' on Youtube for the past 2 weeks.
Nice nice.

GO ADAM LAMBERT!
(Lets hope I don't jinx him like the others - David Archuleta and Clay Aiken (Spot the similarity)).

Birthday's this week! =)
Promise to update next week.

Muack!

2009-03-14T17:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 7TH MONTH, DEAREST CHAN CHAN!!
I love you.
*hug*
And stop calling me prawny!!
I'm cuter than that! Ahem!
Don't make me eat 10 king prawns with garlic and stuff your nose to my mouth!
=D
'My Bloody Valentine', THIS WEEK!!!
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I have lots to blog about. Very lazy. Soon soon *cross fingers*

ADAM LAMBERT IS NOT GAY!
Right?

My Favourite Idol!

2009-03-13T17:30:00.005+08:00

Adam Lambert... Adam Lambert, Adam Lambert!
Oh God, i'm gonna hyperventilate and fly to heaven.
If that even makes sense.

American Idol
Top 12 - Black and White by Michael Jackson

For Dearest.

2009-02-15T18:24:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day and 6th Month!!

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'Cause you have that effect on me, you do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, I love you harder so

Everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal a heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine

Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand.

Sizzle!

2009-02-14T12:00:00.002+08:00

There For Tomorrow - No More Room To Breathe
I just realised how cute the lads in There For Tomorrow are. Hee.

We The Kings - Secret Valentine
The new MV version is great!

.

2009-02-14T00:42:00.006+08:00

'Indie' people are too 'cool' for Valentine's Day. Happy Valentine's Day to myself then. *muack*, love you Joen. I hate christmas, I hate New year, I hate my birthday, I hate Valentine's and those 1st month 2nd month shit. All I do is cry. I'm cursed.I rather just have typical 'Monday', 'Tuesday'.

The Holidays... so far.

2009-02-09T12:50:00.008+08:00

Tuesday!

Went to Jerald dearest's place. Bought lunch for him. Finally we built his desk, that dusty desk. 1 year worth of dust! That bum bum. Gave oranges to his parents and got an ang bao (they gave me $22, very generous. Even my relatives don't give me so much.) and hugs. Hee hee. Had dinner with his family and 2 aunts. My nose was bothering me the whole night, damn flu. After dinner, the whole family played cards. I lost (but did not count how much), Jerald's dad gave me $10 though. How nice =). Cabbed home around midnight. Pleasant day.

Wednesday!

Met up with Rebec at Vivo. Had ramen at Sushi Teh. Watched 'Bride Wars'. I loved the movie. It was such a cold day, and my flu was threatening to come back. We went to a cafe called BakerzIn. We had Macarons with hot chocolate. My first time trying Macarons, sweet treats. And they look so cute. We shopped for awhile and bought the same sandals from Charles and Keith (Rebec has been eying them for the longest time, finally there was an offer). I rushed home to watch American Idol at 8pm. Heh heh. What a nerd. I love Adam Lambert. So old, but so cute. So far he's the only name I can remember.

Macarons!

Charles and Keith sandals.

The quality's really bad, but is the only one I can find:
Adam's audition.

Friday!

Dearest came over to my place at night. He gave my parents oranges. We watched 'World of the Worlds' VCD. Josh came back, headed over to Mac around 1am to get dearest's dinner. That silly boy didn't eat! He went home around 2am. Simple day, I was glad to have him by my side. =))

Saturday!

My whole family were out. Parents attended a wedding. Brothers went out with friends. Dearest wanted to come over to keep me company, but I told him not to. He was already in the cab and had to head back to his place instead. I felt so bad. I love you dear. Sorry.

Sunday!

Went to The Cathay with Dearest. He brought me to Astons for dinner. We had to queue, but it was worth it. Dinner was yummy. We watched 'Underworld: Rise of the Lycans' at 7.30pm. We had their Caramel Gourmet Popcorn. It was really nice, but kinda costly. Anyway, the movie was alright. It is the prequel to Underworld. Headed over to Dearest's place for awhile. Headed home around 12am. I was exhausted! Thank you for the lovely date dear.

Happy Birthday Rebec!!!

See you on Thursday!
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Months before!
These are very very very old updates.

Friends:

Had a few dinner dates with Siti and Li Hui. I love having dinner with them. All the gossips and laughter. Aww I miss them. Meet up soon, girls!

Once there was a blackout in Jurong area. Both Siti and I were affected by it. Even the traffic lights weren't working. After dinner with both Siti and Lihui, we walked around and there were people actually taking photos. It's like our little own cheap thrills. You don't get to see this everyday in Singapore. HAHA. When we parted, I had to climb the stairs on my own up to my place. It was freaking dark. Very very scary. Luckily I had my handphone as a source of light. I was praying while climbing. Phew. So no electricity... we had to use CANDLES and got to play with touchlights. So romantic, kinda fun actually. Power was resumed around 11pm.

Li Hui come over to my place a couple of times to make jelly. Practice makes perfect. I wanted to make it for Dearest's 20th birthday. I even cooked canned soup for Li Hui, my way of thanking her. Hahaha. I'm such a cheapskate. I had lots of fun.

Went shopping with Siti a couple of times. We walked around the new Jurong Point. It's really big. She also followed me to town to get dearest's birthday present in October. Damn, I've not blogged for so long. Shopping sooooon, babe!

Had a hair cut with Rebec 2 or 3 months back. Now I have bangssss =))
Had dim sum with her a couple of times.
Went to Ikea to eat and she came over to my area.
We went to Chinatown, Haji Lane and Bugis before Chinese New Year.
Vague memories, can't remember in details.
Oh and she gave me a Christmas present.
How nice, for such an evil person!

HAHAHAHA.

Thanks Rebec.

=))

Family:

Had Christmas dinner with family at Science Centre's Sakura.

Had New Year's eve dinner at a Japanese Resturant, Nihon Mura. Somewhere near Jurong Point.

Watched 'Yes Man' twice. Once with Josh and the second time with Josh and Joel.

Dearest:

On Jerald's 20th birthday, I WAS SICK!

Peachy!
I skipped school.

After lessons ended, I went over to Woodlands to pass him his present.

I'm so sweet right? Sigh.

That lucky &^#%*!!

Heh heh.

I bought him a Punk Star shirt and gave him a card.

On Saturday, I was still sick.

Took a flu pill the night before.

It was one killer pill.

I woke up around 4pm still feeling drowsy.

Dragged myself out of bed to meet Dearest for dinner.

He brought me to Nihon Mura.

After, we headed to his place as I was a little weak.

Chilled for awhile, then I cabbed home.

One of the days, I did finally made jelly for him.

Watched Twilight.

The books were amazing.

The movie was disappointing.

Dearest and I both thought it was cheesy.

After the movie, he sent me home.

Called Josh to meet us to have supper near my place.

Headed to a playground to enjoy the breeze and talk.

And then something interesting happened.

We were talking and just looking at people pass by.

Innocent right??
I guess not.

There was this group of guys who walked passed us.
Or rather there was this group of matraps (however you spell it) who walked passed us.
I mean they indeed justified the term.

So they decided that it's 2am, they have no life and wanted something I would love to call - idiotic fun - WEEE!! What better way to satisfy their pathetic needs?? Come and find trouble with us. I mean we were after all the only people who were able to give them that little bit of attention.

Botak and friends. Their way of approcahing is hilarious. They walked passed us, crossed the road to another block, kept staring. Probably their visions were poor, they headed to a nearer block and with old age kicking in, they had to sit and stare. After like a decade, botak and his friend decided to approach us. Oh wait, not us, the back of us. So much for trying to be intimidating and macho. I don't know what they were doing. Finally, botak asked Josh,

"Eh why you stare stare?"
"You see I botak you stare ah?"
"You stare like want to eat me"
"I botak, just come out you want to stare ah?"

Erm... CONFUSING!!
The whole time I was trying to hold back my laughter.
I was thinking... "Come out? Come out from where?"
*dazed look*
Ohhhhh, he just came out from the hospital, had chemotherapy, that's why botak.
Insecure kid.

My brother:
"No, we were not staring at you"
"I thought you were my friend"

Botak:
"Don't stare stare lah"

Bro:
"No no, never"

Both shook hands. As a sign of 'peace'.
*still holding back laughter*

Botak:
"You play what shirt?"

Me thinking to self:
"Play what shirt...."
"Hmm... play what shirt?"
"Pasar malam 3 for $10 shirts!"

Anyway, that was botak's lingo of asking what gang my brother is in. Josh looks like a punk with his piercings and all. Oh gosh Josh.

Moral of the story: Don't look like a punk and don't stare at botak people. They're insecure.
=)
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Came back from class chalet a few hours ago. I'm exhausted. Bet Dearest is sleeping like a log now. I'm gonna get a little ZzzZz... Will update about it when I wakey.

Plain White T's - 1234 (Official Video)

2009-02-07T12:14:00.002+08:00

This Valentine's Day is gonna be extra extra special.
It'll be my first time celebrating with someone I love.
AND AND AND
It'll be our 6TH MONTH together!

Hee.
=D

Goodbye January.

2009-02-01T14:33:00.004+08:00

24th Jan, Saturday - Had dinner at Vivo's Swensen's with kor and Shu Fang. Great dinner.

Sunday, Monday, Tuesday - Chinese New Year.

Wednesday and Thursday - Stayed home. Waited patiently for 6pm. AMERICAN IDOL ON STAR WORLD!! Gosh, I sound like a loser.

Friday - Met up with Rebec at boring Orchard. Had lunch at Sushi Teh. Whenever we have the intention to spend, we don't see anything we like. Frustrating. It's always the other way round when we're broke. But I did buy a couple of things at the end of the day. Rushed home to catch the 8pm American Idol. Heh heh.

Yesterday 31st Jan, Saturday - It's been quite a while since dearest and I had a great time together. We argued a lot, got sensitive over petty stuff. It's heartbreaking. A lot of things happened. I rather not talk about the unhappy stuff.

Anyway, we had dinner and watched a movie yesterday. It was delightful =). Had dinner at Sakae Sushi. As we had 2 hours to spare before the movie starts, we walked around for awhile before heading to Starbucks. Shared a drink and talked a whole lot of rubbish.

What's the cutest thing that happened yesterday?
Dearest gave me a 'To Write Love On Her Arms' hoodie and was bashful about it. He was like "I have something to tell you... *pause*... this hoodie is actually for you", took hoodie and passed it to me, "I wanted to give it to you earlier, but I shy". WTF WTF WTF?!! Aww, he's like a little boy. So adorable. =))

Movie time!
We watched 'The Wedding Game', the one with Fann Wong.
It was mediocre. I didn't expect much from it anyway.

Movie ended at around 11.30pm.
Dearest sent me home.
He went up to my place, thank god he was with me.
There was a freaking cat outside my flat, sitting there like a queen staring at me.
He went to 7-11 with Joshua.
We watched the TV and ate some tidbits.
He went home around 1am plus.
I love sitting beside him, being close.
I feel protected.
I still love him no matter what.
Fantastic day. All smiles.

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The very first time Jerald come to my place was on the night of Christmas. That precious bought all sorts of cookies for the family. Aww and he bought a special snowman cookie for meeee! He was so shy when he shook my dad's hand. Hee. I'm glad he and Josh are like buddies.

My snowman cookie!!

It's already a new month of the new year! That's fast.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!
I know I'm a month late in greeting, oh well.
May this year be an exciting one.

=)

Favourite Scenes from 'Yes Man'

2009-02-01T13:06:00.003+08:00

Btw, I adore the movie.
Hopefully Youtube doesn't take away the videos.

'Sweet Ballad' - Zooey Deschanel

Jumper Scene
Classic!! Love it. Watch watch, you won't regret. Sure to make you smile.

Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You.

2009-02-01T09:17:00.007+08:00

Current favourite song!! =)
I LOVE the lyrics.

Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You (Official Music Video) - Click here for more home videos

* I hate Youtube, they took away so many videos!

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

(Chorus)
"Cuz we belong together now, yeah"
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
"And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you"

"Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you"

(Chorus)

"Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,"
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together now, (yeah yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Cuz we belong (yeah) together now (together now), (yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Chinese New Year 2009

2009-01-28T22:30:00.004+08:00

This year's CNY is much better compared to last year. =)

As usual, went over to grandparents' place on CNY eve for reunion dinner.
I love my grandparents.
*Note to self: Cherish them.
My cousins, Zi Ming and Zi Xin, were there.
Ate a lot. Pleasant day.

CNY!!
Woke up at 8am.
Went over to aunt's place first then headed over to grand's.
My cute cute cute god-cousins were there!!
Jovan and Jovis had grown so big.
But still as adorable as ever.
They made us laugh a lot =))
Aww, precious kids.

The guys went to play 'Left 4 Dead', I cabbed back to my aunt's place.
My other cousins were there.
Had dinner, usual gossip session.
Freaked each other out with ghost stories on CNY.
HAHA. Idiots.
Reached home pretty late.
Exhausted.

I collected $180.
Not bad, I guess.
SHOPPING!!!
Yay yay.

WAIT!!
Some asshole collected $350!!!
WTF?!!
Not fair.

I'll be back.

2009-01-22T21:54:00.005+08:00

I've been very very very verrrrrrrrry lazy.
I promise I'll update everything during my 2 and a half months holiday (jealous jealous?!).
Okay, brb (erm.. like few weeks later).
Muack, take care.

Meanwhile, let me unleash my *cuteness to the world.
*Cuteness = 16 years ago.

Enjoy, you pedophiles!

Watch me cycle yooo!!

Ohhh ya!

Stupid loser-ish brother.

Hey! I already had bangs then!!

Aku hip sia.

The Ah Lian potential was already there.

Joel the ET.

Gosh, the ear.

Okay, this was when I became ugly.

Bye bye.

2008-12-14T13:42:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 4TH MONTH, JERALD DEAREST!!

I love you.

We may have silly arguments every now and then,
and yes,
sometimes it hurts.
But whatever it is,
I still love you so very much.
Hee hee.
*hug*

Can't wait for our 'Twilight' date.
Can't wait to build that century old table of yours.
Can't wait to spend time with you again.
I'm glad the holiday's here!!

Melee - Built To Last

Discovery Channel - (I love the world) Boom De Ya Da!

2008-12-07T20:05:00.005+08:00

Jerald dearest's favourite song/video!
Aww, adorable creature. <3

NEW Discovery Channel Commericial - Boom De Yada! - Click here for another funny movie.

2008-12-06T17:50:00.004+08:00

Slept with a heavy heart.
Woke up at 4pm today, feeling like crap.

Something is wrong.
I feel like I'm gonna breakdown and die.
Okay, I'm exaggerating, but it feels like it.

God! I'm so tense.

Rotten Week.

2008-12-06T00:58:00.003+08:00

Let's see how many things went wrong this week alone.

Argued with Jerald.
Jerald's sick, missed whole week of school.
Snappy mood.
Terrible weather.
Back ache.
Just recovered from flu.
Feels like I'm about to lose another friend.
Guilt for forgetting about the break appointment with Delwyn, Dexter and Cheong.
I felt like a complete idiot during OP lesson.
My tooth aches again.
Realized I don't have a FYP team.
Loooooong week, it was horrible.

Worst thing, I had to go through all those alone.
I have a family, but they know nuts about what is going on in my life.
I have close friends, but they seem to drift away from me.
I have a boyfriend, but he wasn't there when I needed him.
I have God, but I'm starting to lose faith.
Add all up, I have nothing. Depressing.
Yaya, gloat at my misfortune.

2008-11-30T21:08:00.007+08:00

Thank you for the heartwarming message.
I've been a horrible friend.
But you didn't forsake me.
=))

"Do you know the muffin man, the muffin man, the muffin man?
Do you know the muffin man, who lives in Drury Lane?"

"Yes, I know the muffin man, the muffin man, the muffin man;
Oh, yes, I know the muffin man, who lives in Drury Lane."

**********

2008-11-28T22:41:00.005+08:00

Nobody knows even if I faint, they don't even care.I can't rely on anyone.It's okay.I'm used to being alone.How is now any different?

dfbkulklkjfk

2008-11-25T21:48:00.007+08:00

Something's missing.ARH!I wanna go back to when it's beautiful.Day by day, I seem to be less important.

Dearest's 20th Birthday.

2008-11-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY JERALD CHAN!
My precious.
I love you, even though you're old!
Hee hee.

Hugs and kisses.
Presents presents presentssssss!

Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry

2008-11-15T15:27:00.001+08:00

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

2008-11-12T17:25:00.001+08:00

The All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell

David Archuleta - Crush

I genius!!

2008-11-12T09:43:00.008+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - IQ Test

I have Very superior intelligence sia!!
Then why am I in RP?!!
Shit.

Click to enlarge.
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I PASSED MY PP!

YAY.

Done and over with it.

- ♥

2008-11-09T13:53:00.001+08:00

Sigh, I still love you so much.
Why must things change?

Taylor Swift Feat. Colbie Caillat - Breathe

2008-11-09T09:09:00.001+08:00

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
Mmm...mmm...Mmm...mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

(Chorus)
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know, like the back of my hand
And I can't...
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I try to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

(Chorus)

It's 2am, feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
And it's 2am, feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me...

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
Oh...

I can't breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to

Sorry, sorry, sorry, yeah, sorry
Sorry, sorry, sorry....

Paramore's Decode - Official Soundtrack for 'Twilight'.

2008-11-05T14:52:00.002+08:00

PERFECT!
Love the song.
Love the video.
Love Hayley's (singer) hair.
Can't wait for the movie.

How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win
You're losing sight
All the time

Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own
(I'm screaming, "I love you so")
On my own
(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
I think I know
I think I know

There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true

2008-11-05T14:24:00.001+08:00

When you love someone, you must hurt him/her.
Okay now I get it.
A little too late though.

Cheap!

2008-11-03T22:05:00.008+08:00

Desperate girls disgust me.
A girl who can say "I love you" to multiple guys in a period of few months definitely needs to start thinking with her brain and not her vajayjay!
But I think a girl like that doesn't have a brain anyway.
=D
Such a disgrace to girls.
Vile creature.

There, I've voiced my opinion.
Heh heh heh.

Rad.

2008-11-02T16:37:00.006+08:00

The Academy Is... - About A Girl

William Beckett (lead singer) is so cute!

The Cab - Bounce

Alex Marshall (Pianist)... OMG.

Looks kinda like Zac Efron. BUT WAY CUTER! HEE HEE.

PPPPPPPPPPPP... HELP!

2008-10-31T07:37:00.006+08:00

Omg omg omg!
I swear I'm gonna puke.
My PP presentation's today.
Holy #$%^!!!
I woke up at 6am and started presenting to invisible people.
Too excited.
Right.
I'm gonna somersault in there, kick asses and walk out.
YES!! I CAN DO IT!
I hope.

Thank you Mei Jun for doing the PP with me and everything. Thank you Rebec for giving me tips on what to expect. Thank you Jerald for helping me to prepare. Thank you God for making me an excellent speaker and ace my presentation (Thanking in advance hee hee, please please pleassssssse... *pray*).

Can't wait for it to be over.
Gonna meet Rebec and Wei Zhong for Sushi buffet after that.
Meeting Jerald dearest tmr.
Think about the good stuff...
I have UTs on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.
SHIT!
Give me a minute while I go cry.
Heh heh heh.

Crushed.

2008-10-29T22:43:00.009+08:00

Drained. I had to hold back my tears on my way home. Here I am crying silently. I just want to really really cry my heart out. Like loudly and hug myself. The past 2 days were stressful. I'm glad I have Mei Jun. At least I know I'm not alone.

2008-10-19T19:13:00.002+08:00

* Tu me manques is I Miss You in French.

Heee.
Jerald dearest is the sweetest thing!!
*hug*

ILY...

2008-10-17T20:16:00.008+08:00

I've built my defenses around me again. I can't help but be wary. As much as I love you, I won't allow myself to get hurt again. Call me selfish. You just have no idea how much pain it was emotionally and mentally. I'm not brave enough to go through it all over again. I have to admit, I still feel sore about what happened on Tuesday. It may seem trivial to you, but it really affected me a lot. All I wanted was you to hug me, I needed you so badly that day. But things turned out so bad. I was crushed. I still feel the pain.

Help me to believe. Help me regain the trust that I had in you.
I still love you so much. But is that enough? I don't know.
I'm trying my hardest to makes things as beautiful as before, but would it be the same?
Sigh.
There's so much things that I miss.

Second Month.

2008-10-14T22:33:00.004+08:00

Second month.
It was perfect.
Tragically perfect.

Let's see.
I had my period early in the morning.
Just let it flow~~~
Oh the cramps were awesome.
I even had tears of joy.
Of course he wouldn't understand, he's a guy.
It's a girl's job to pretend that everything is great.
I hope God personally comes to earth and annihilate MSN once and for all.
It's the root of all evil.
It sure knows how to distract a person early in the morning.
Even I got addicted to it eventually.
Hmm, what else?
Oh and I need to gain weight.
Cause apparently I'm pretty much invisible.
Wait,
why would anyone want to acknowledge me anyway?
Ignore the pessimist. Flock to the sun(s), they emit radiant energy.
*SMILE SMILE SMILE*
Makes you a happier man.
And of cause the pessimist has a shame, since she isn't wanted, she'll just leave quietly.
All that blood, sure makes a person weak.
HA, WHO CARES?

Oh wow, what a fruitful second month.
Definitely more happening than the first.
Sweet.

Don't worry, you all don't have to understand what I'm saying.
They are all just WORDS.

Meg & Dia - Just One Of Those Things

2008-10-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

Give me a minute
I need a second
Got to breathe there
It's Just one of those things

Wish I could tell you
How much I need you
And how much you
need me to go

Please don't listen
to what I'm gonna tell you
Look in my eyes and know
I simply had to give up
But I didn't let go without struggle
you know, I still love you
It's just, just one of those things

I know I made it seem
Like all was written down
And I hid all my pain
And now I bring it out

And you'll be scared at first
cuz it's such an ugly blow
I don't know which is worse
to learn or not to know

Please don't listen
to what I'm gonna tell you
Look in my eyes and know
I simply had to give up
But I didn't let go without struggle
you know, I still love you
It's just, just one of those things

Please don't listen
to what I'm gonna tell you
Look in my eyes and know
I simply had to give up
But I didn't let go without struggle
you know, I still love you
It's just, it's just one of those things

I tried to tell you a million times
That you have always been one of us
I tried to tell you a million times
You have always been one of us

Please don't listen
(I tried to tell you a million times
That you have always been one of us)
Please don't listen
(I tried to tell you a million times
That you have always been one of us)
Please don't listen....

Tears behind a smile.

2008-10-12T22:52:00.010+08:00

Am I still special to you? Those tears, gosh I'm a wreck. My self-esteem is an all time low. Great. Who cares, right? I'm just a burden to everyone around me anyway.

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Meg & Dia - How Much.

Currently my favourite song.

Twilight.

2008-10-11T16:32:00.007+08:00

I'm done reading the Twilight saga.
SIIIIIIGH.
I'm having a bitter-sweet feeling now.
=((

***Spoiler***
It was a happily ever after. (Not that it's surprising.)

I'm feeling sore cause this is THE END.
End... no more... finish.
END OF STORY.
You get what I mean.
The characters are like family to me now.
LOL.
Heh heh heh.

All in all, AMAZING story.
One of the best!!
I love Stephenie Meyer.

I'm anticipating the release of the movie in December!!!
WOOT!

2008-10-08T16:53:00.002+08:00

It's depressing to know that in a year, I've lost two good friends.
Not that anything bad happened to them.
We just drifted apart, I guess.

So it's true, friends do come and go.
Hey, that's life.

6th October 2008

2008-10-06T22:39:00.005+08:00

Convo between Jerald dearest and I.
=))

He makes me smile so much.

Jaw cramps!!!

Awesome!

Oh gosh, I love him.

=))

Bliss, bliss.

2008-10-05T17:29:00.007+08:00

Huiling tagged me. So I guess I'll do it.

Tag 5 ppl to do this quiz.
ANYONE. I can't really be bothered.

01. What have you been doing recently?
Erm, crying?

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Nope. It's always on silent though.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
Still asleep.

04. When did you last cry?
Erm... Friday. What can I do? I'm a major crybaby.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?maybe? maybe not?
Maybe.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
To be happy.... ya.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Neither. I'll just take a cab or wait for the rain to stop. Depending on the situation.

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
My blanket and pillows.
I want dearest to hug me to sleep.
It'll be perfect.

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts. Is this supposed to be a dirrrrrty question?

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
Everything that is from Jerald dearest.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
No. Why would I want to do that? Madness.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
It's been sooooo long. Hmm, I think it's 'The Mummy: Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor'.

14. What are you proud of?
Dearest. And a lot of other things.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
It's the very first sms I got from Jerald. Heee. Memoriesssss....
Not gonna tell you what's in it!

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
"I don't want to grow up, I'm a Toys' R Us kid. There's a million toys at Toys 'R Us that I can play with!" =))
I'm kidding.
Can't remember leh, I sang a lot today.
Can't get enough of my voice!

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Yes. Yin Girl, Jo Jo, psycho girl, monkey ears, bitch, jerk... etc.
NICE!

18. What does your last received text message say?
I'm not gonna tell you!

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
... late. Very late. About... 2am.

20. Are you currently happy?
Yipee yeah! Ya.

21. Who gives you best advice?
Myself.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Gross! No.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Dearest. =))

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Nope.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Dearest!

26. Do you wear toe socks?
No. They look stupid. I don't wear socks anyway.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Dearest =((

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Ya, I guess.
But I got over it fast anyway.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
EVERYTHING.
I hate people.
I'm an angry child!

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
No.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Ya. Cocaine, ice, ecstasy, weed.
I wanna delude myself into believing that I'm Superman and jump out the window. Instead of flying, I'll fall flat and birds will laugh at me and poo on my distorted body.
Sure.

32. What is the colour of your room?
Very light pink.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
And go to hell for eternity?
Right.

34. Do you believe in the saying of : talk is cheap?
Yes.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Dearest. *melt melt melt*

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
No.

38. Do you have a life?
Ya.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't die?
Wait... is Osama still alive???
I heard he died from cancer or something.
No shit man.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
SONGS. They are my favourites.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Can't remember.

42. Last time you smiled?
Today.

43. Have you changed this year?
Definitely.

44. What are you listening right now?
Metro Station - Kelsey

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Nope. I'm bored, that's why I'm doing this shit!

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Closed. You mean people actually talk with their eyes open????!
*gasp*

47. Is there a quote you live by?
God helps those who help themselves.
=))
Me holy holy.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
No... yes. Maybe?
No no no.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
The recorder.
I'm musically talented.
Thank you thank you.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
Shan't say.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
Watching 'I not stupid 2'. Dad bought the vcd.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Yes. Very.
*Grin*

53. What song best describe your love life?
Many many many songs.
It ain't confined to just one song.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
What are you talking about?
My boyfriend doesn't know I'm in love with him!
*sob sob*
Holy #$%^&*!!!
I've been living a lie.
Heh heh heh.

55. Who always make you laugh?
Jerald Jerald Jerald.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese and Malay.

57. Favourite website(s)?
Youtube, Purevolume, MTV, 66stage... etc.

58. What's your middle name?
Don't have one.
It's just Joen. Zhou.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
I have schoooooooooooooool!

60. What do you think you are like?
I'm like whateeeevvvver!
Heh.
I'm just amazing.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
I don't wanna die! I DON'T WANNA DIE.
I want Edward Cullen to transform me into a vampire!!

62. Where have you been today?
Erm... my parents' room, the kitchen, living room, toilet and now in my room.
Ya.

63. What game do you play often?
ZUMA! Heh heh.

64. Who are you missing right now?
Do I even need to spell it out for you??!

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
I won't choose.
I won't let anyone make me choose.
The person who makes me choose is prolly an evil person!

66. What are you doing right now?
This stupid quiz! It has 100 freaking questions!

67. Which primary school are you from?
Rulang.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Black, white and grey.
Actually I love all dark colours + white.

69. What emotion you like to show?
The 'siao char bor' emotion.

70. What is your life to you?
Important.
A bitch at times.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Cry.
Let all the sadness out.
Crying is good you know.
Drains out toxic.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Dearest. Chatting with him now.

73. Who do you admire most?
Jesus.

74. Which month are you born in?
May.

75. How are you feeling right now?
Annoyed. When will this end?!!

76. What is the time now?
9:43pm.

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
Huiling.
Very very very helpful and nice.
=)

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
Black. Yes, I dyed my hair black. Twice.
Not that I have white hair, mind you!

79. Why are you doing this test?
Cause I'm bored.
*yawn*

80. What do you do when you're moody?
Listen to songs, hate the whole world and become a mute.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
25? Oh man... imagine seeing the same face for the rest of your life.
Gosh!

82. Who is more important to you?
God and family are the most important! Dearest too, and of course my close friends!
Don't make me choose, I'll kick you! FLYING KICK! Heeya!!! *punch punch*

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
Pray pray pray. And spend my last few hours with my love ones.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
I don't even trust my family members. HAHA.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yes. I'm an optimist.
Ya right.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
I don't know. Too many dreams already. Don't know which one to pick siaaaaa!

87. What is your goal for this year?
To pass year 2 in poly!

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Erm... wow.
I don't know.

89. What feeling do you love most?
The HIGH feeling.
HAHAHHAA.
NO dirty thoughts please!
I mean the 'happy happy lalalala yay yay yipee yeah' feeling.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
No, I think God is coming. This is to prepare us.

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
Those really heavy sinking feeling.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes. Of course.

93. Do you believe in God?
Absolutely.

94. Who cares for you most?
Myself. Everybody wants the best for themselves.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
All my love ones and health.

96. What will you bring when you fight?
A Bible and a handphone.
If the people don't repent, I'll call the cops.
I'm not joking man.
Whatever it is, why would I want to get into a fight?
Only stupid people fight. That's cause they are not smart enough to express themselves verbally.

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
Huh?
No regrets.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
Then I'll care for myself more. And I know God cares for me.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
Dunzo. Bye bye. Have fun with the slut.

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
Exhausted.

2008-10-02T22:09:00.002+08:00

Lord, please take my heart away.
Please.

I'll build that wall again, to protect myself.

Hmm.

2008-10-02T11:49:00.004+08:00

My heart hurts.

I miss you so much.

But the thought of yesterday just keeps playing in my head over and over.

I can't help but tear.

Forgiving is easy, forgetting isn't.

Hurt.

2008-10-01T23:25:00.003+08:00

What did I do wrong?
Time and again we get upset with each other over something that I don't even know.
Are we drifting apart?
Or have we changed?
What I fear is happening all over again.
I didn't believe in love,
you changed all that.
And now when I love you so much,
I'm also feeling pain.
Things aren't the same.

Is this the end?

Updates.

2008-09-28T10:38:00.007+08:00

I have so much to blog about I don't even know where to start. I'll just categorise it, easier.

JERALD CHAN:

I am still very much in love with Chan Chan (HAHAHAHAHA!).
Yes we have issues once in awhile, it helps us to understand each other better though.
I guess I can't always expect things to be peachy. If they are, what do we learn then?
Now I have to learn to handle such situations in a better way. I tend to clam up whenever faced with difficulties.

Note to self: I need to be more understanding. NO EXTREME THOUGHTS/ ACTIONS. It's uncalled-for, I'll only regret it after I cool down. Sleep IS the best remedy. Tested and proven by Professor Joen Zhou. Results vary, depending on the type of dreams you have. Heh heh heh.

Jerald dearest is still the sweetest thing ever. He got me the last book in the 'Twilight' series, Breaking Dawn. That was his 'supplies' (surprise) for me. He is such a darling. Arh, just thinking about it makes me want to squeeze him!

Friday (26/9) was a bitch for both of us. Shan't elaborate.

Went over to his place yesterday, it turned out great. Charm, Jerald and I had a fun time taking photos. Charm's lovable, Jerald's stupid! Hee. I love it when dearest hugged me to sleep, while Charm randomly poked fun at people on the net and Jerald bossed Charm around to be our DJ. I don't even feel foreign or reserved around them anymore. In a room with 2 of my favourite people = yay yay-ness. Hee.

FRIENDS:

Mei Jun is one friend I never want to lose. She's simply amazing. And I say this from the bottom of my heart. She made cookies for her boyfie and even gave Jerald and I. Such a sweet treat! Friday, when Jerald and I were kinda having a 'cold war', MJ tried her best to comfort both of us and even offered to leave school early to spend some time with me. She was really objective and did not take sides, that's what I love about her. She's our peacemaker. Hee. These past few months, I've got close to her and I'm glad I've found another awesome friend who can kick asses with me! =)) heh heh heh!

I'm glad MJ and Rebecca get along fine. I can have dinner with 2 of my close friends after school! Such a simple thing, but it really makes me happy. It's gonna be great if all our close friends and love ones get along and genuinely like each other. That way life would be so much easier. We can all hang out together and spread the looooove! Heh.

Monday (15/09) 5N2 had a mini gathering at lakeside's park, thanks to Li Hui. Small turn out. People present: Chin Yang, Yu Xuan, Chin Seng, Li Hui, Pitrra, Catherine, Siling, Pei Wen, Shi Yun, Siti and I. It was sort of a lantern festival celebration. There were drinks, tidbits, sparklers, moon cakes, lanterns, CY and YX brought along a bottle of Volka (which we didn't touch), and LOTS AND LOTS OF FREAKING ANTS! I had fun. Catherine as usual never fail to make me laugh. We were freaking each other out with ghost stories. The boys annoyed us with their antics. Left the park close to 10pm. CY, YX, Li Hui and I walked Siti home. After, we headed to have supper. Our favourite fish soup macaroni with Rojak! Reached home around 11.30pm. I was exhausted. And I had school the next day.
Sigh, I miss 5N2.

FAMILY:

Joshua as usual is being stupid. He is actually a witty kid, but I don't get it why he is screwing up his life every second. I don't even know my brother anymore. These few days I feel so disconnected from him. If he doesn't want to help himself, then I shan't bother myself with his issues. I guess something major has to happen to him before he'll wake up. Hopefully it's not too late. He has great taste in friends. All freaking poseurs, trying to look 'different'. Erm ever been to Bugis? HAHAHAHA! You all look the same! Retards.

I feel like my family don't know me at all. Well besides the obvious, like what I like to eat, my favourite colours or habits. It's all on the surface. But when it comes to something deeper, darker. They have no clue at all. Oh well, actually nobody knows. There are days when I rather just talk to myself. At least I listen.

SCHOOL:

There's improvement. I know more names. Heh heh. There are some really nice people. And I actually got an 'A' for Distribution and Transportation, in the first week. That's a motivation. I hope things will get better.

Damnnnnnnnn it. UTs!!! Sigh. Study study study.

MENTAL STATE:

Period's coming. PMS. Hmm. Need I say more?

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Having Operations Planning UT tmr. =(
Got to study.
Fuck.

2008-09-26T21:32:00.005+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I've given up on Joshua. He goes out everyday, smokes his life away with his fucking useless 'friends'. Good luck.

Joel lives in his own 'girlfriend-studies' world. His world just revolves around girls girls girls and being a nerd. Period.

Mum is still... mum. I mean silent.

Dad's all talk no action. He nags nags nags.

I love them all, but they make me so frustrated!

I am truly alone in this world. What's the point of having all these people when they don't even seem to notice my pain.

1,2,3

2008-09-26T16:31:00.005+08:00

Why does it hurt so much? That's the reason why I loathe relationships so much. The pain is crazy. And it ain't something that can be numbed with medication. I hate the way I'm feeling right now. I feel so helpless. All I can do is cry. This is useless. I'm trying so hard... I'm having thoughts I shouldn't be having. I wanna hit someone so badly, I wanna scream, I wanna cry. Oh gosh. Nothing's the same anymore.

2008-09-24T13:41:00.003+08:00

Have tons to update.
Shall do it when I'm not so lazy.
Hee.

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Just Stand Up (For Cancer) - Performance from Keyshia Cole, Leona Lewis, Fergie, Ciara, Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Mary J Blige, Rihanna, Carrie Underwood, Miley Cyrus, Ashanti, Natasha Bedingfield, and Nicole Scherzinger [who is not on the official single]. Missing: Leann Rimes, Melissa Etheridge, and Sheryl Crow.

Great song with amazing artists.

~

2008-09-16T22:55:00.007+08:00

I was on the verge of crying today, in class. I felt so foreign. I wanted to give up on everything and just go home. The whole feeling was so familiar. It's like history repeating itself. I have everyone, but yet I feel so alone. I'm drained. No one is there when I need them. But when I want to be left alone, all of them come flocking. Such a joke. Sigh. Tired. Really really tired. Feeling so numb. Life is meaningless, sometimes. It's like nothing matters to me anymore. The lack of sleep is fucking with my mind. I'll be fine in the morning. Hopefully.

Special Dates.

2008-09-14T09:58:00.010+08:00

Jerald is gonna get all shy and never ever read my blog again.
HAHHAHA, whatever.
Silly snowy.

Time passes real fast. It's already been a month since I declared myself attached and no longer a nun (Hallelujah!!).

Yap today is September 14, we have been officially together for 1 month. *grin*
Chey, what's 1 month, right?
What you all don't know is we have known each other for almost 6 months, and we got really close about 4 months ago.
Just that nothing was official then, it didn't bother me at all.
But I am glad that we have a special date now.
Actually, there are a couple more dates that are really significant to me.

7 April 2008
The first time I saw his face and know that a Jerald Chan exists.

17 April
The first time he chatted with me on msn. And I remember telling myself, "Wow at least I have an interesting classmate." Heh heh.

2 May
Got the first sms from him. Up till now, we are still messaging each other everyday. =))

3 May
Our first outing together.

In between.
I was a mess, crying, skipping school and all. But he was there for me. Although I canceled on him many times, he was really nice about it. He messaged me everyday, it seriously cheered me up.

28 June
First hug and kiss.

4 July
First time we held hands. I know, it's weird. We actually kissed before we held hands.

29 July
The first time I had dinner with his family.

14 August
OFFICIAL!
Heeya heeeeeeya! Kick kick kick.
Erm.

Yes, I remember all these dates very clearly.

Those few months, I've laughed till my tummy hurt, I've cried and have been angry. Unknowingly I've fallen for him. Before, I didn't believe in love. Until he came along and changed that.

Jerald, I love you.
Lets make a month into a year, a year into a decade, a decade into a century and a century into a millennium. You're screwed. You're stuck with me forever!!! Wahahahahaha! I'll see you in Heaven k, we'll be a kick-ass angelic couple.

Heh heh heh.
*Hug*

Seeeeeeeeeee, I'm trying not to be so mushy. If not people are gonna puke.

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Btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG REN!!

=))

Sushi buffet.

2008-09-14T09:00:00.004+08:00

1/09/08

Had Sakae sushi buffet at Orchard with Rebec and Wei Zhong. We ate till 6pm, then walked over to Far East. Chilled at Gelera. The usual chatting and all. We left close to 10pm, I took a train home with Wei Zhong. The last outing we had before school reopened. =((

Okay, as for the new class, I have nothing to say. I skipped the first week of school. I only went on Tuesday, it was pretty fun. Got to hang out with ex-classmates, since they are all scattered in neighboring classes, I get to see them often. The new class, E45L, didn't leave a strong impression on me though. Maybe I'm getting older and lazier, mingling seems to be a chore. My team for that day was pleasant. I had Daniel, thank God, I didn't feel so foreign. Jia Jia is an amiable girl and YiQian (???, don't know if I got her name right)... she wasn't around half of the time, she's alright I guess. I had a good first day. I nearly passed out when I reached home though, fucking headache had to ruin everything.

Thursday, had Song Ren and Daniel in my team. HOWEVER, I had Operations Planing that day... BORRRRRING shit. I didn't understand a single thing anyway. I had another 2 team mates. I believe the dude is called Jun Xian, Sam?? Great guy, easy to get along with. He's the only person I know who stays in Little India, hahahaha, scaaaaary! There's this Malay girl too... called Zee? No idea man. I can't be bothered going around asking for their names. Anyways, I left halfway. Went to Coffee Bean with Mei Jun to slack.

This class isn't competitive at all. But hey, I've only attended lessons twice, what do I know? Heh. There's school tmr, no more escaping. Freaking RP sent me a letter, stating that if my attendance does not improve by the 17th, I may be dismissed. HAHAHA. Alright!

Everytime someone mentions about school, my mood changes. Like drastically. You guys have no idea how much I fear school. How silly.

Sigh, holiday please come fast.

=(

2008-09-10T22:26:00.008+08:00

Why do I feel so distant from him, today? I had a nightmare. I dreamt we broke up. The emotions were so real. Usually dreams don't bother me. But the one I had evoked some sort of emotion in me, this morning. My head hurts.

2008-09-10T13:36:00.004+08:00

Wei Lun tagged me to do this. And since he is my beloved brother who fights evil urban legends with me (We are the Winchester brothers from Supernatural!!! Heeya!), I shall comply and do it. Although this is a REALLY stupid survey.
=))

1)How are you?
PMS and cramps. Ohh I'm doing great.

2)How old are you?
Not old at all. Just 19. Still really young.

3)How tall are you?
164cm.

4)How heavy/light are you?
47kg. I don't look like it though. Heavy bones, I guess.

5)How intelligence are you?
Smart enough to know that it should be,
How intelliGENT are you?
and not,
How intelliGENCE are you?

6)How sporty are you?
I used to swim and play badminton, for fun.
No time for it anymore though.
Besides, I don't want to be the black sauce on tofu. Ahem.

7)How rich are you?
Pretty rich. That is if I'm able to draw out my bank money.
=))

8)How healthy are you?
Physically, I'm pretty alright.
Mentally... God, please help me!

9)How is your love life?
Amazing, fantastic, excellent, terrific, superb, remarkable, wonderful, incredible, marvelous, brilliant, mind-blowing, and whatever words you can find on Encarta that's similar to what I've mentioned. Hee heee.

10)How important is your love one to you?
Oh so-so lah.
Come on, do you call someone your LOVE ONE and deem him not important?? Such a dumb question.
Jerald Chan is freaking important!! I can't imagine not having him in my life.

11)How important is your family to you?
Extremely important. Like duh! Do you even need to ask? Once in a while, I do have urges to strangle my brothers, but they still mean the world to me. As weird as my family members can be, I still love them a lot. Nothing is gonna change that.

12)How important friends is to you?
Friends are really important. But mind you, I only mean the close ones. People like Mei Jun, Rebecca, Siti, Wei Zhong, my Ten Days Band members and whoever else that are genuinely nice to me.

13)How many ex you have?
One. I've only had my heart broken ONCE. Hence, my heart is still pretty new.

14)How many family members you have?
Daddy, mum, Joel, Joshua, mama and kong.
That's 6.

15)How many best friend(s) you have?
4. Siti, Rebecca, Mei Jun and Wei Zhong.

16) How many people you wish this survey will be pass on?
Whomever wants to do it, be my guest. =)

2008-09-08T22:09:00.009+08:00

PP ACCEPTED!!
Hallelujah!

But I'm guessing the advisor didn't even bother to read through everything. His comment to me was reaaaaaally constructive.

"Joen, Good you have taken a efforts to do survey and plotted a graph"

Nice English btw.

I'm being mean. But he could have commented on it a little more. I mean I gave him 2600 plus words - with lots of graphs and a map - and all he could give me was one miserable sentence? Okay, I'm being a bitch now. Heh heh.

I AM OVERJOYED.
Now, I'll have to worry about the poster presentation.
Just great!

2008-09-07T22:57:00.009+08:00

I don't know if this is even possible, but I seriously think I have a phobia going to school.
I really get all edgy just thinking about it.
Whatever happened last semester really left a huge impact on me.
No one understands the mess I went through that 2 weeks of absence from school.
All they know how to say was "Oh Joen is a slacker lah", "Oh that silly girl doesn't care about her grades at all."
Everyone was just quick to judge me.
Yes, there were days that I skipped school out of laziness.
But if it's a long period of time, then OF COURSE I am going through some sort of issue, dumbass. Try telling my brain to give me a break. If it listens, then prolly I'll attend lessons religiously. Good luck on that though.

I don't want to jeopardize my studies. You think it's fun looking all lost in class everyday? You think I ask for all these shit to happen to me? I don't even feel normal.

I'm touched friends offer to help, really.
But sometimes I don't even know how to explain.
And I am tired of trying.

Just support me and don't give me pressure.
I'll be able to pick myself up.
Time is all I need.
I managed to pull through last semester, I'll try my hardest to do the same this semester.

Come on, let's admit it. People were expecting me to fail at least one module right?? But I didn't. I proved you guys wrong! So don't underestimate me. It makes you look foolish.

I thank God for giving me the strength to push on.

2008-09-06T22:17:00.006+08:00

Surprisingly, I managed to complete my PP in 2 days.
It's pretty much crap anyway.
Heh. Oh well, it's a sigh of relief, really.
Just submitted it. Hope it gets approved!

Thank you Mei Jun and Jie Sheng for offering to help me =))

I'm really worried for Jerald.
He hasn't been feeling well =((
Get well soon dearest.

2008-09-05T22:57:00.006+08:00

I want to turn back time.
To when everything is close to perfect.
Those memories just keep playing in my head, over and over again.
It makes me smile.

Lately, things keep going wrong.
I don't like it.
Sigh.

I'm not a good girlfriend. I don't know how to make him feel better when he's down. I'm usually the root of our problems. It's unfair to him. It's amazing how I can always tear when I think of him. It's not a bad thing. It just goes to show how very much I don't wanna lose him. But is he truly happy being with me? Sometimes I feel, it's better that we're not together. Just like the old times, when we don't have to commit. The whole 'string attached' thing. It can be a real bitch. What's the point saying all these now? Things will NEVER be the same again. Sometimes I just wanna give up on everything - him, friends, family, even myself- and lock myself in my room, never have to explain myself or respond to anyone. I don't know why, but I'm mentally, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. I just put on a smile and act all feisty everyday, to disguise my weaknesses. So that people won't use that against me. Nobody understands me. It's difficult to transform what I feel into words. If only I can transfer all my emotions to another person with a touch. I bet they won't be able to handle it. I'm strong. I know that. After all that I've been through. I'll survive. There are people out there that are worse off than me. I use that as a consolation. It helps sometimes. Other times, my beloved brain just fucks everything up. Seriously, I think it is best that a person like me be left alone the rest of her life. As loser-ish this may sound, I actually am happiest when I'm at home. Playing games on my laptop while listening to songs, with mummy lying on the bed. It makes me feel I'm not alone, yet I have peace. I don't know how to explain, even if I do, you prolly won't understand. I'm so tired. I cried twice in a week. How is that normal?

Random.

2008-09-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

He'll leave me one day. It'll be thanks to you, brain.

Yesterday. 29/08/08.

2008-08-30T12:41:00.010+08:00

Jerald Chan ♥

He is prolly the only person who is capable of making me upset and extremely happy all in the same day.
He really knows how to put my emotions to good use.

Okay, so we kinda had a tiff in the afternoon.
We got pretty frustrated with each other over something.
And as you know, girls can get petty at times. It took me a longer time to get over it.
I cried. Thinking back it's kinda silly, but ya.
All guys should know how amazing girls are at giving the 'silent treatment'.
I'm guilty. =((

But Jerald Chan, this amazing dude that I am in so much love with, came all the way to Jurong (he stays at Newton btw.) just to apologise. Awwww. And he bought me Pocky!! *big fat grin*
Joshua went down with me, as it was rather late.
And hey, we had a great time.
Joshua and dearest got along really well.
We talked about Joshua's love life (Jerald gave some advice), gangs, random stuff and the supernatural (thanks brother, it scared the crap out of me, and it didn't help that people were burning incense!).
After about an hour or so, we had supper.
(surprisingly, it was around 1 plus in the morning, but dad didn't call!! That's definitely a first. I'm glad Joshua came along.)
I don't know if you guys understand how I feel, but I get really touched when I see my close friend (MJ) and brother getting along so well with my boyfriend. It's just so heartwarming.

Jerald walked us to our lift and then he pulled out a book.
IT WAS THAT BOOK ('Eclipse') I WANTED FROM STEPHENIE MEYER!!!

http://joensautobiography.blogspot.com/2008/08/twilight-saga.html

He bought it for me and mind you, it's a hard cover (it costs more)!!
Awwww.
I melted immediately.
I totally didn't expect that.
I was more than happy that he came over and completely forgot what happened earlier on in the day.
He makes me really really happy.
I was partly at fault, and I didn't do anything to make amends.
He did everything to pacify me. (Gosh I can be so childish)
That is what I call love.
Unconditional love.
Thank you for showing me what love is, dear.

Having Jerald in my life is one of the best things that ever happened to me in my 19 years on earth.
I can't thank God enough.

Jerald, I love you so much.
Thank you for being so patient with me.
I wanna rip my heart out and hand it to you.
But that's impossible lah, heh heh.
*BIG HUG*

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To Jerald:

The Veronicas - Speechless.

Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cause you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I'd run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby

You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you

The Dark Knight - Joker Interrogation Scene Spoof

2008-08-29T22:16:00.001+08:00

Very Funny!

Shh.

2008-08-29T13:42:00.007+08:00

I'm so tired of making everyone happy. Why do I even bother?? That's cause I don't wanna lose anyone!
I didn't know it'll be so hard to juggle friends, boyfriend, family, my alone time and studies all at the same time. This is tiring. It's like I don't even have a holiday. First week of holiday, it was okay. Second week, it got intense. Meeting friends, meeting him. Hey I'm not complaining. I had fun too. But I was spending so much just on eating that I had to struggle to think of ways to ask mum for money or reject my friends. This week is frustrating. I wanted some alone time to get started on my PP, but I sidetracked (blaming myself). There was the class dinner. Was supposed to met up with friends, but I canceled on them. My family needs me too. It's not always just friends, boyfriend, friends, boyfriend. That's stupid. I'm not Joshua, who goes out 24/7 and has no responsibility whatsoever. Why am I even explaining to you guys?!! Gosh!! School is reopening. I'm trying to squeeze everyone in. Saturday and Sunday is family day. Monday and Tuesday was supposed to be for Jerald. I took away Monday for Rebecca and Wei Zhong instead, since I canceled on them before. So that means I won't get to spend as much time with Jerald, he starts school on Wednesday. And I seriously fear that school is gonna take up so much of our time that hanging out with him will be a problem. This 3 weeks I only got to meet Mei Jun once, and I'm feeling very sore about it. But I know she understands. I didn't even get to meet Siti, she has exams, and I seriously miss her. I just hope that everyone else will understand too. I'm human. I will break eventually. Just cut me some slack and give me a break. Others may be handling this better than I do. But hey every human has their own capacity. This is the stupidest thing to cry over. Fuck.

Eat, eat, eat.

2008-08-29T09:19:00.008+08:00

19/ 08/08, Tuesday.

Rebec and I.

My sisters!!

OMG look at Ah Zhong's face! HAHAHHA.

I'll post up the rest of the pictures when I get it from stinking WZ.

Seoul Garden (lunch) with Rebecca, Wei Zhong and Lance.

There was this Thai tour group, and I'm not looking down on anyone, but they seriously grossed us out. We had sauces on our table (which we took ourselves), and they conveniently took it away from us!!! Okay, it might be their first time there, but seriously will it hurt to open their traps and ask?? They were being very inconsiderate. Heee and well... of course we the evil ones, won't let them have it easy. I did a pretty sick thing. I licked my spoon and stirred it into the soya sause we had. AND THEY ACTUALLY TOOK AND USED IT!! *Puke* Holy #$%^&, they had a taste of my saliva. NOT BAD. Must have tasted like honey! HAHHAHAHAHA. Repent repent repent. Forgive and forget. HAHAHAHHAA. Gosh, seriously.

Rebecca and I had fun tormenting the guys (WZ and Lance).
Those pigs, they ate from the time the lunch buffet started up till it's over. That's like 4 hours in stinky Seoul Garden. I couldn't help but reminisce about the old times with Maria Gang, all the fun fun fun. Sigh. Things are different now. I'm just glad that I'm still in contact with great friends like Bec and Wei Zhong who were in my semester 1 (year 1) class.

After lunch, we walked around. Wei Zhong apparently is suffering from some sort of old woman disease. He peed countless times in a day! And the worst thing is he always had to drag Lance along with him! Seriously what's up dude? Okay ya, you're all fit and sexy (*gag* he paid me to say this. hahaha), guys might take advantage of you in the toilet... but hmmm it's kinda gay to keep asking Lance to accompany you. Erm. That day it was like going out with 3 girls. *smile* Moving on...

We decided to chill at this small cafe at Suntec's The Playground. Wei Zhong suggested it and what triggered it was prolly this particular waitress. THAT PERV. Lance isn't enough huh?? Freaking Bisexual! Heh heh, *peace*. We ordered our drinks and waffles. PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE. How secondary school-ish. Eh eh eh but ours is the really intense, sexual kind can?!! We learned so so so very very much from each other. Bec and I made the boys take photos with the 2 waitresses there. The Chinese one was obliging. The Malay (not being a raciest, just that she happened to be this race) bitch acted like she's Jessica Alba or something, she was making faces and all, like we were a nuisance. Pleaseeeeee, we didn't want her to feel all left out, get emo and go disfigure her already hideous face, that was why we asked Wei Zhong to take a photo with her. *roll eyes* D-E-L-U-D-E-D! For the 'truth' part we had stuff like 'Sex', 'Secrets' and 'Love' written and rolled up in pieces of paper. SURPRISINGLY (I'm being sarcastic), WZ kept getting 'Sex'. He is a good sport though, being very open about everything. That dead place was suddenly brought to life, thanks to us. That minah should be kissing our feet man!

I had a splendid time with them. That day, it was like all my worries were locked up. I spent the whole day laughing, being stupid and it was filled with merriment.

Sometimes when I think back, I get all dejected. I miss people like Juliana (she has to work, so Bec and I understand), Jia Yu and Kelvin. Now, asking them out is almost impossible. They simply have no time for us or won't take the initiative to even contact us.
Sigh.

It really takes 2 hands to clap you know. We can't always be asking people out and getting rejected time and again, and you don't put in any effort at all. Sometimes if you want to make a friendship last, you'll have to do your part too. Nothing comes easy. I need to find more 'steady' friends like Rebecca, Mei Jun and Wei Zhong.

Great, I'm thinking a lot about the meaning of friendship again.
I'm just really glad I have solid friendships with Siti, Mei Jun, Rebecca and Wei Zhong.
And I have Jerald.
Those are more than enough, really.
=))

21/08/08, Thursday.

Had dinner at Sakura (Orchard) with Jerald dearest, Mei Jun and her boyfriend, Jia Cong.
Dearest was seriously scaring me with his atrocious sleeping pattern. Me, his alarm clock, even had problems waking him up. Left him to sleep, while I met up with Mei Jun and Cong first.
Mei Jun was such an angel, as Jerald was late and I didn't have enough money, she paid for him first. He wanted to pay her back, but she didn't have change, she was really nice about it and insisted that he can always pay her back when school reopens. I'm so touched that baybee trust him so much =))

I had a wonderful evening with them. We girls were practically victimizing the 'not-so-man' guys! As usual there's the gossiping and making fun of the spider fucker (hee, not gonna elaborate). It was a blast. I love my dearest and baybee so much! And Jia Cong is an amazing dude. I love the way baybee and her boyfie talked to each other. Just looking at them made me laugh.

Let's do this again!!

*Baybee, thank you for paying for Jerald first, remind me to remind him to pay you back k. Muack. You're the best.

22/08/08, Friday.

Went to Ikea with dearest.
We had the poached salmon and Swedish ball (erm MEAT balls) for dinner. YUM!
Oh there was this freaky kid. She kept staring at us with her murderous eyes. Made me really uncomfortable. For a moment I thought of Chucky. You know, that devil doll?? Okay... I'm being mean. But she was really scary, no shit. That was one angry kid.
Walked around Ikea, dearest looked out for side-table for his bed. I was just checking out random stuff. Heee and I got the cutest guinea pig soft toy!!! It is so soft and smooth!! Love it love it. Heh heh heh.

Jerald's mum and Charm came to fetch us. We went to get ice cream from Mac before heading back to their place.

23/08/08, Saturday.

Had seafood dinner with the oldies and aunt Hwon at Ghim Moh. Was shocked to see Song Ren there, chatted for awhile. The weather that day was simply perfect. Headed over to IMM after, mum got for me the 'New Moon' book. =))

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Was supposed to meet Bec and Wei Zhong yesterday for sushi buffet (changed it to Monday) and my Ten Days Band/secondary school classmates for dinner today at an Indonesian Restaurant, but I canceled on both of them. Really sorry about that you guys. =(

I guess I should start on my PP? Yes? Hmm.

The Twilight Saga.

2008-08-29T08:13:00.007+08:00

I AM IN LOVE WITH EDWARD CULLEN.
Oh sorry.
I mean I am crazy over The Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer.

It is about a teenage girl risking everything when she falls in love with a vampire.

Begged daddy to get me the first book 'Twilight'.
I finished it in a week.
And mum willingly bought for me the sequel, 'New Moon'.
Read finished in 5 days. =))
See, now you know why my PP still has zero words.
Hee.
I can't wait to get my hands on the third one, 'Eclipse'.
&& the movie will be coming out this year!!
AWESOME! YESSS! WOOT!

Book 1

Book 2

Book 3

Book 4

To find out more, go to her official site:

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilightseries.html

Bye Bye, E46H.

2008-08-27T11:25:00.005+08:00

Yesterday's dinner with a few of the classmates and Eden (facilitator), was pretty fun. Better than I expected actually.

We had buffet at Quality Hotel (Novena).
People present were: Eden, Ryan, Khai, Zack, Jia Rong, Farhan, Cavan, Daniel, Jerald and I. I was the only girl... kinda weird (oh well they don't treat me like a female anyway, I'm prolly more man than half of them there hahahah! They are all pussies, except for my dear of course. Hee hee hee peace peace). But these guys really made me laugh a lot. Especially Daniel! Hahaha.

Oh and Eden treated us all (jealous, much?). It was about $127. Must be thanks to me lah ah, I made for him Ice Kachang with lots of ingredients. His favourite. =))
Heh. We all felt guilty cause we were supposed to TREAT HIM, and not the other way around.

Enjoyable day.

And of course I'm totally gonna miss people like my:

Dearest Jerald - Going into class will never be the same again. I won't get to see his face early in the morning when I enter class. =(( how disheartening. That is why I'm so depressed.

Khim - No one is gonna help me with Excel the way Khim helped me!!! =(( she was my pillar every Friday for Cost Decision. I'm gonna crumble and DIIIIIIE. *pray* please let there be an angel in class who is like Khimy. I want helpful classmates!

Terence - He annoys me. But I'll still miss him!!! I'll miss the sight of him and Khimy together!! *sob sob*

Khai - *Feeler fingers* who am I gonna do this to now??? Who am I gonna make fun of now?? AH MENG!!! DON'T GO! Heh. Ah Meng's dead anyway. HAHAHAHHA.

Ryan - That bitch!! Gonna miss gossiping with him! Gonna miss him gossiping about ME!

Bing Bing - Awww, this blur girl. I'm gonna miss that look on her face lah. It is one of a kind. So cuuuuute!

Vivian - She is after all the first person I talked to. So ya there will always be that memory.

Cavan - No comments! He is one pain in the ass! Heh. Joking. Nice guy lah. Always annoying me and insulting my intelligence.

Gabriel - Father~~~ the holy one. How can I forget him?? He sets me on the right path. All the glorious porn! Hahhaha.

Joyce - My China friend!! Aww I'm gonna miss her. Amiable person.

Jia Rong - I've been grouped with him like 987654234655 times. So ya. And that hair...

Farhan - Great chap. Can be full of nonsense too. Cause Khai that evil one always instigate him to be sinful!

Eden - And of course! My favourite faci!!! He was a great help to me. Helped me A LOT in my Excel. And thanks to him, I managed to get a C for my Cost Decision. =))

Hmm actually, I'm gonna miss the whole class. I'm surprised that I actually feel this way. I hated the class before! Haha.

Sigh.
Oh well, I've learned to take it in my stride.
There's nothing I can do really.

Pokemon Parody.

2008-08-27T10:17:00.004+08:00

Charmaine showed this to me.
Stupidly hilarious.
It just makes you laugh, cause it is really really random.
I showed it to my brothers and they love it!
Classic. Heh.

Watch watch!

Sigh.

2008-08-27T01:50:00.000+08:00

Good news:

Considering the constant ponning of lessons, I actually managed to pass all my modules! *surprise surprise*

IN YOUR FACE! To those who doubted my abilities! I got a GPA of 2.35 - FYI: Each module I skipped more than 5 times. So ya, in my case, it is pretty god damn amazing! I'm easily contented.

Okay moving on... sigh.

Yes the bad stuff.

I'm in E45L.
Daniel and Song Ren are in the same class as me. (not that this is bad)
Heard from Sok that 5 of her 'very fun' classmates are in my new class.
She says it'll be fun.
Right.
Like come on, obviously they 5 will be really close and form some shit ass clique.
They'll be all chatty and pally with each other, most probably excluding the rest of the class.
Poor me, will look all blur in class. (Song Ren and Daniel are great guys, really, but we're not close).
Life is really unfair huh?
Xue Ting has like 7 great friends in the same class as her.

Jerald's class is just beside mine. BUT WHY CAN'T HE BE IN THE SAME CLASS AS ME??? It is like so near yet so far. *frustrated look*
Dear has to go back to school on every Wednesday though, he has to retake his computing module. =(( (bet he is gonna own the module this time, imagine all the PPTs and 6Ps he has. If his classmates are smart they will start sucking up to him.)

Sigh sigh sigh.
I FUCKING HATE CHANGES!

New classmates.
New modules.
New Facis.

Think. Positive.
At least I'm not the only one, I guess.
Sigh.

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I'm glad we are talking again =))
Thank you for taking the initiative.
You have always been a special friend.
I'm happy to know I still mean something to you.
*smile*

The Chan Family.

2008-08-25T17:09:00.002+08:00

29 July, Tuesday.

After school, took a train to Jerald's place. Had dinner with his family and aunts. I have to admit, it was kinda awkward. Thank God I got along pretty well with his sister, Charmaine (I can see she's the one with the good genes. Cute and lovely. How can I hate her when she ganged up with me to insult her brother! Lol, love her.). I've met Don and his girlfriend, Sylvia, before (Nice and friendly people). His dad is great, warm personality. I was kinda intimidated by his mum though. He has a very unique family. I actually really like them. =))

I had a pleasant evening.

1 August, Friday and 5 August, Tuesday.

Went to Jerald's place after school. Both times I had fun. Got to know Charm more, she'd hang out with us in his room, tell us about her friends and stuff, and randomly we'd poke fun at Jerald. I'm surprised that I actually got along really well with her in such a short period of time. And I simply adore the way Charm and Jerald interact with each other. They are so close and loving. It's like "Awwww". I can't help but smile whenever I see them together. Don is a really funny guy. He makes us laugh a lot. He definitely got his humorous side from his dad. I love the harmless teasing between them and their dad. There's always laughter during dinner time. =))

8 August, Friday.

Jerald came all the way to Jurong. I was pretty moody for the last few days due to bad cramps and PMS, skipped school for the whole week. The sweetheart bought for me a cake, chocolate and buns (to be exact, 'tofu buns', he bought it just cause of the name, it totally made me smile! How much cuter can he get?!!). (It is okay to be jealous, girls! =))).

Earlier on in the day, he asked me really random questions like what I like to eat and all. He wanted to buy the clam chowder soup which I love from Long John Silver, but they sold out. He could have come empty handed, I'd still be contented. All I need is to see his face and hug him.

=(( he scared me though. All of a sudden he had this pain in his stomach. Breaks my heart to see him in agony. Thank God he was better by the time he reached home.

12 August, Tuesday.

After the 'Death Cab for Cutie' concert at Esplanade, dearest dropped by my place again. And this time he managed to get the clam chowder soup!! Even typing this makes me smile! He is such a gem! Love him to bits.

Joshua went down with me to see him, they didn't really talk, but ya. They occasionally exchange mindless Friendster comments. He is the only one in the family who knows that I'm attached. Hee, I don't hide anything from my kiddo brother. =))

14 August, Thursday.

Official!

He popped the question, we got married and lived happily ever after. *grin*

I was over at his place. And so he decided that we should at least have a date, you know a day that's special. So ya, I agreed. Ta da!!! And now I get to tell people, "Yes I am attached" hee hee.
Jerald Chan is mine, so ya, girls (and guys especially hahahahah!) please back off! Roar!! Or I'll make you into meat bao.

http://joensautobiography.blogspot.com/2008/08/14-august-2008-goodbye-singlehood.html

18 August, Monday.

Supposed to watch 'Midnight Meat Train' with dearest. I guess God (I am not using God's name in vain, but merely just trying to think optimistically) thought that the movie's gonna emotionally scare Jerald and make him slash his own wrist. So He made a diversion for us. Made someone pickpocket Jerald. He is an easy target after all, due to his height. Stands out, makes it easier for crooks to prey on. Those bastards! How about getting a job instead, fucking losers! Oh wait... they're probably too pathetic, nobody wants to employ them. Pitiful scum.

The suay-ness doesn't end there, while waiting for Jerald's mum to come drive us to the police station, he dropped his drink (I accidentally bumped into him, but still, of all the days...). Before we got into the police station, Jerald's mum gave him $50. AND GUESS WHAT??? He dropped it!!! NO WAAAAAAY! Seriously. To prevent more disasters from happening, we headed back to his home. Thank God nothing else happened. Had dinner, and the rest of the night was enjoyable.

Hahaha. It turned out to be a pretty hilarious day actually.

2008-08-23T00:27:00.003+08:00

I have a lot to blog about! Like 1 month worth of stuff sia.

Like the few times when Jerald came all the way to Jurong.
Me going over to his place and meeting his family.
The outing I had with my semester 1 (year 1) classmates.
The Sakura dinner with baybee, her boyfie and dearest.
The day when Jerald was down on his luck. Hee hee.
Etc, etc, etc... ...

I have a whole lot of crap to blog about! And frankly I'll rather find an excuse to blog than to get started on my PP. Hahahha.
Oh shut up, I'm screwed.

When I get the 'feel', I'll update you guys on all that.

Oh and btw,
Are you jealous?? Are you are you are you??

Well you should be, cause...

... Jerald dearest peeled prawns for me on Thursday, during dinner at Sakura!! (Mei Jun, thank you for peeling for me too, I am one spoiled child.)
AWWWWWW!
Normally the girls will do it for their guys.
BUT NO!!
He did it for me! (well I'd have peeled for him too you know, but too bad he doesn't eat prawns. hee hee)

Now you know why I love him so much.
He is just too lovable.

2008-08-22T00:58:00.012+08:00

Okay I'm sick!
Bet you are too!
I just can't stop smiling, even though the baby's on the verge of tears.
Hee.
*pout*
sigh. i'm always overwhelmed with pessimism at night. sometimes i ask myself what is the point of getting into a relationship?
it just brings more pain. ya of course there are the blissful moments, but how long do they normally last? i never want what i have with Jerald right now to fade away. but is that possible? i don't know what is wrong with me, but i keep reminiscing about the past few months. everything was just amazing with him. it hasn't changed... but... hmm i don't know how to put what i feel into words...
knowing how much I love him is... weird. this is rather foreign to me. i have not loved a guy so deeply before. i don't know what to expect. it is intimidating. And then there are all his ex-girlfriends... if he can say i love you to them, and yet they end up going their seperate ways... it can happen to us too. i love you is like a reused word. abused by everyone. everyone says it to their then girlfriend/boyfriend. there is nothing unique or special about it anymore. it is such a sad word. how ironic.
i guess now i've fallen prey to LOVE too. hahaha. yap "hahahhaha" is all i can say now.
he may think he loves me more than i love him. how wrong. he has no idea, no idea at all.

2008-08-20T12:47:00.003+08:00

The person who tag/pass you is?
Ryan. He BEGGED me to do it.
Nah I'm just kidding heh heh. He tagged me, so me being such a good friend, shall do it.

2. Your relationship with him is?
Classmate. Bitching buddy.

3. Your five impression of him/her?

1) Independent
2) Frank
3) Spendthrift
4) Fun-loving??
5) Sarcastic

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Bitching ABOUT ME. Ya thanks.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
Erm, goodbye? I don't know.

6. If he/she become your lover you will?
Erm... awkward. What's up with all these questions?
WILL NEVER HAPPEN.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
Get over his gay partner, Zach/Zack. Impossible.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
HAHAHHAHAHA. Bitch about him everyday! Righteous!

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
He did something really shady or he turns out to be a conniving creep.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Nothing. =))

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Nice person to gossip with. Like a sister or girlfriend, you know. Oh wait.. that means he's a girl. HAHHAHA.
Peace.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
The mean ones think I'm a bitch and extremely psychotic.
The sweethearts think I'm bubbly AND psychotic.
Everybody thinks I am psychotic.
So ya.

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
My sarcasm?
I'm able to stand up for myself?
I don't know, I love my personality a lot.
And if people can't deal with it, that's their problem.
They are probably boring anyway.

14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?
My paranoia is the main reason why I get really sad sometimes.
I get really suspicious over the slightest stuff.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Why even bother answering, not like it's gonna come true. The answer is God btw. Heh. But there is only one God, and I have sinned a lot. So ya. Hee.

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them :
If you GENUINELY care and like me, I see a great friendship/ relationship ahead of us. I wanna squeeze you!! Muack muack.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
They are :

I've only chosen those who have an active blog. (You wanna do or not, it is up to you)

Please do not tag me, thanks. I'll kill myself if I've to do it another time!
1) Siti
2) Mei Jun
3) Xue Ting
4) Rebecca
5) Ellen
6) Jia Jun
7) Jing Han
8) Wei Lun
9) Chin Yang
10) Jean

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
He (Jia Jun) is having a very strong relationship with God. Which is a good thing.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
Male.

20. If number 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Erm, I'll never see it happen. Jean is attached anyway.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
Some Java thingy? Sorry baybee, I have problem remembering your course.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Can't remember.

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
I have no idea sia. Erm, Backstreet Boys? Lol.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
Yap, 3 very lovely sisters.

25. Will you woo no.3?
And become a lesbian? Ya sure, why not?
=))

26. How about number 7?
He is evil!!! He kills fishes!!!
EVIL EVIL~
I do not woo guys btw.

27. Is no. 4 single?
Yes, but she will definitely have something to say.
She keeps insisting she is married anyway.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Ellen TANG. =))

29. What's the hobby of no.10?
Erm... playing pool? Not sure.

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
Yes, I guess? They are my Ten Days Band family!!!

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
Republic poly =)))

32. Talk something casually about no.1?
She is my bestie best friend!

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
YESSSSSSS! Wooo, scandal. Please lah ah.

34. Where does no.9 live at?
Jurong.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
PURPLE! Without a doubt!

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Nope. But we all belong to the same gang. I love my Xiao Tuo(Ellen) and Xiao Nei(Siti).

37. is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
He is a fucking raciest! About the same lah, both words end with -iest. So ya I guess he is the sexiest man alive!

38. What is no.6 doing now?
I don't know. I'm not his mother, you know!

2008-08-20T01:16:00.003+08:00

I had an incredible day.
But now I'm having that awful feeling.
What? Payback for being happy earlier on??
Arh! Stupid.

The Cab - I'll Run

2008-08-17T17:12:00.002+08:00

Favourite song at the moment =))

*Take note of the dude playing the keyboard. He is soooo cute!

Happy Birthday Siti (backdated post)

2008-08-16T21:48:00.011+08:00

2 August 2008, Saturday.

Siti's 19th Birthday!

Birthday girl. Dearest bestie. Siti Zahidah.

After almost like a month of not seeing each other, Siti and I finally met up on her birthday!!Time passes real fast.We've been best friends for almost 6 years! Woo beat that!

Gave Siti a birthday treat at Taka's Seoul Garden. As we were there early, we had to wait for the dinner to start. Bummer.

Walked to Borders where Siti got her super chic pencil box.

=(( I wanted to buy too sia! Miss the secondary school days, when I'd buy all the cool stationery and looked for cute notebooks and pencil cases. Aww.

By the time we went back for dinner. I was shaking from hunger. I skipped lunch lah. Poor me. We ate to our hearts' content. Satisfaction written all over our faces. Hee.

Kor and his girlfriend, Shu Fang, came over for awhile to wish Siti. How nice of them. It was freaking cute. Broly was like "Hey Siti, happy birthday!" *shake hands*. Then Shu Fang, "Hello, happy birthday!" *shake hands*. I burst out laughing. It's just odd. Lol.

Jerald dearest was such a darling. Through me, he sent her a really sincere birthday message. I hope that put a smile on her face =))

After about 2 hours in Seoul Garden, we headed over to Plaza Singapura. Siti's school, Millenia Institute, had a fun fair thingy there. She wanted to support them. Friends wished her, and a guy gave her a flower. Lovely.

Thought of going to Esplanade to watch the fireworks, but decided not to, due to the crowd and all.

We headed home instead. Like the old times, we listened to songs and gossiped in the train. You know all the girly girl stuff. Everything was just so lighthearted.

Beautiful day!

6 August 2008, Wednesday.

Watched 'The Mummy: Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor' with Siti, at Jurong Point. Pretty good movie. Some parts were stupid, like when the Emperor turned into a Dragon out of the blue (I mean dude, you're supposed to be a mummy?? Yes? Nooo?), and those Yetis... erm okaaaay. Isabella Leong the actress who acted as Lin is really pretty though. And Brendan Fraser's amazing. Go watch it.